TG It was a nightmare

I woke up feeling drunk and suddenly realized it was only a nightmare, at least partially.

I was watching tv and felt all this hair on my head.  I thought to myself, wtf, I know I had a hair cut a month ago, but suddenly all this hair was hanging in my face.  RED hair.  My Mom was sitting up in bed and making a strange hat sort of like shag carpeting.  I ran to the mirror to see what was going on with my hair and at the same time realizing that my daughter was dead and it hurt all over again.  Then I realized that my sweater that I was wearing was way too long.  So I started cutting the sweater down and cutting off locks of hair.  Then I looked into the mirror and I saw a 400+# woman.  I freaked out, what happened to my surgery.  I then asked myself, why is mom in the next room?  Then I woke up for real and realized it was only a nightmare, but even in my nightmare my daughter was still gone.

I am relieved it was nightmare, but only part of it was.  I wish I could have spent some time with her if only in my dreams. 

Of course as soon as I really woke up, I ran to the mirror and saw me now, but was left with all this hurt and stll feeling drunk.

We all fear waking up fat again, thank God it wasn't real, but what can I do about the rest of the equation? 

 

Sounds like bad dreams are rounding the boards... Sorry to hear that you couldn't spend time with your daughter in your dream...

Did you have any different to eat/drink before bed last night?? I find that makes my dreams go haywire!

I hope that you have a more restful, peaceful night tonight.

Liz

Nan,

I'm so sorry to hear Sometimes we can make ourselves dream certain things. Perhaps if you spend time thinking about your daughter today, or looking at pictures of the two of you together right before bed, you will have sweet dreams about her.

I hope the day goes well!

- Angela

Nan,

From someone who was tormented by all sorts of horrendous bad dreams last week, my heart goes out to you.  Those feelings when you wake up are just so horrific.  And so real in the dream as well.

The only advice I got was that it seemed that I was anxious and a tad out of control.  When I sat there and thought of it- they were right.  I've slowly started taking some control back and balancing my life as much as I can right now.  It's not easy with everything going on - but the dreams have subsided.

Better sleep tonight!

Pam

Nan after my Mom passed away I wanted her to come to me so much in my dreams and she never would. I would pray for it and almost begged God to let her come to me. Then I talked a friend they told me to stop trying so hard and do my best to relax when I sleep because I had not relaxed to sleep for months after my mom died and when I finally did that it took a few more weeks but she came to me in dreams and I felt comfort from her. It was just 10 year last month and I still have her come to me from time to time it seems when I need her most that I feel her around me and in my dreams to calm my troubled soul.

I wish you will find the comfort in dreams and have your daughter come to you ..

**HUGS**