A new focus..( a bit long..sorry!!)
Hello lovelies!!! Well I am finally settling in to my new home and getting used to (sort of) to my new long commute to work. ;-) Anywho, I haven't posted in a few weeks due to all the hustle and bustle of moving but now that things are finally starting to calm down somewhat I am hoping to be able to move back into writing here more often.
So, first things first...I am officially in ONDERLAND!!!! Woo-Hooo!!! It felt like a long time coming but finally about one hundred pounds is gone from my frame and I am once again starting to look like a normal human being. I feel beyond phenomenol and am able to do things like run and up down stairs without feeling like death!! However, I do need to get re-focused on myself and my eating...I have not been keeping track of my protein and I know I have not made my protein goal at all this week or last...so Ipulled out the protein drinks and mixes and am refocusing on that. We finally have the back room set up with the excersise equipment and weights soooo guess who's butt will be on the treadmill today and toomorrow?? That is right..ME!!! I have just got to get myself back into my good routine.
The surgery was like opening a window for me and with the hustle and bustle of big life changes...I feel like I am almost let it slip closed. But I am grabbing hold with both hands and forcing that window right back up to let in the sun and the wind and the freedom of my new life. Anyone new to the surgery --I want you to know this is one hell of a gift to give yourself and don't forget about it when life starts piling in on you! I almost fell backwards into the old abysss but I steadied myself and looked around and said ..."Hell No!! I like this new place I am in..." And no amount of carbs or fats will take me back down the crooked path!!!
With this surgery and the new outlook in life I am opening myself up to all new possibilities and seeing where God takes me. Before I would hide...hide from my family, hide from life...but now I can walk head high and not be afraid or ashamed of who I am. I love feeling powerful and secure in my own skin...and while I may not be a size 5 (yet!!!!) I love being this new thinner healthier woman who feels confident and feels like I can take on the world. The surgery is the tool but ya know YOU have to work it---EVERYDAY. But I know now that I can work it and that is uplifting in and of itself!!
Work has been difficult--people who were once nice now ostracize me...could it be jealousy over my weight loss? I don't know...I certainly hope not..but my family seems to think so because truly nothing else has changed....I guess they could look at me and say their life might be bad but"At least we aren't as fat and miserable as Laura"...My cousin told me that my uncle said people love to root for the underdog...until the underdog is on top..then they want to knock them down. I really hope that is not the case but truly what else could it be?? I do not engage in the drama at work, I don't bad mouth anyone I just do my job...and I love my job too but sometimes the bad vibes are just too much and I do come home and cry...it is another reason I sort of fell off tracj for awhile. But then i thought I am not going to let this control me--I CONTROL ME-- I CONTROL MY ACTIONS...however, it has taken a few weeks to get to this realization...but I am back in control of myself.
This new me attitude has also lead me into trying all sorts of new things..clothes I would have been too scared to try..make up (my love!!) colors I would never have worn because I would stand out too much but now I want to try all that new stuff...new styles, new make up new hair!!! Last night I was sitting there and thought the next time I go to the salon ...I am getting rid of these bangs that I have had FOREVER...I am going to get side swept ones instead... and eventually get rid of them..why have I been hiding my face beneath extra long and thick bangs?? Because I was scared...but this is the new me is taking charge here!!!! I have to say it is scary sometimes to put your toe in the water but now I just want to dive right in to the deep end of the pool!!! Who wants to dive in with me??!!!
****I know this was a bit long winded and if you made it to the end--THANK YOU!!!! Sometimes I just need to put it allout there and get it off my chest so that I can feel better and know that I am going to do the work!! So THANK YOU for letting me go off and for reading it!!***
Laura
"Two roads diverged in a wood..and I took the one less travelled by and that has made all the difference." -Robert Frost
Over 176+ lbs lost since surgery!! :-)
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Aww Cheryl!! Thank you so much!! I feel so guilty that I have not been able to post as much here lately..I miss you guys!! (And I can not wait until summer when I am off and can really be a big time poster again!!!LOL)
Hope you are doing well--but I know you are because you look FABULOUS in all your pics!!!
(((HUGS)))
Laura
Hope you are doing well--but I know you are because you look FABULOUS in all your pics!!!
(((HUGS)))
Laura
Laura
"Two roads diverged in a wood..and I took the one less travelled by and that has made all the difference." -Robert Frost
Over 176+ lbs lost since surgery!! :-)
See my profile for my OH Blog!!
Congrats on your new home. I am glad you are getting settled. I know that takes time.
As far as people treating you different, that happens. I noticed almost everyone began treating me different. Some in good ways some in bad. And either way, I felt offended at first because why did weight loss cause a sudden change in the way people were interacting with me? I didn't get it.
But as for most things in life, you can't control how other people act, or react. You can only control your own actions. So I try/tried to to overlook negative attitude, embrace positive attitude and just live MY life the best I can. and you should do the same. Embrace your new look/body/confidence. You deserve it!
I am so happy you are feeling great and have hit onederland. It feels so good, so take it all in and enjoy every moment of it!
have a wonderful weekend!
Jo
As far as people treating you different, that happens. I noticed almost everyone began treating me different. Some in good ways some in bad. And either way, I felt offended at first because why did weight loss cause a sudden change in the way people were interacting with me? I didn't get it.
But as for most things in life, you can't control how other people act, or react. You can only control your own actions. So I try/tried to to overlook negative attitude, embrace positive attitude and just live MY life the best I can. and you should do the same. Embrace your new look/body/confidence. You deserve it!
I am so happy you are feeling great and have hit onederland. It feels so good, so take it all in and enjoy every moment of it!
have a wonderful weekend!
Jo
When life hands you lemons, ask for tequila & salt and give me a call!
Jo-
Thank you so much for the advice...I am def going to ignore the negative--I do not need or want any toxic people in my life right now. So i am just tuning them out!
I guess you are really excited as your baby will be here soon!! Lucky!!! I love your new pic by the way!! You look stunning!!
Laura ;-)
Thank you so much for the advice...I am def going to ignore the negative--I do not need or want any toxic people in my life right now. So i am just tuning them out!
I guess you are really excited as your baby will be here soon!! Lucky!!! I love your new pic by the way!! You look stunning!!
Laura ;-)
Laura
"Two roads diverged in a wood..and I took the one less travelled by and that has made all the difference." -Robert Frost
Over 176+ lbs lost since surgery!! :-)
See my profile for my OH Blog!!
Laura--Thank you!!! Where are you in Pottstown?? I just moved there myself about a month ago!!! :-)
Laura
Edit:Okay I do remember now that you messaged me when I first moved!! Sorry!! My mind is carp these last few weeks!! LOL But how are you doing nevertheless? I hope I can make it to a support meeting when my MBA program is over!
Laura
Edit:Okay I do remember now that you messaged me when I first moved!! Sorry!! My mind is carp these last few weeks!! LOL But how are you doing nevertheless? I hope I can make it to a support meeting when my MBA program is over!
Laura
"Two roads diverged in a wood..and I took the one less travelled by and that has made all the difference." -Robert Frost
Over 176+ lbs lost since surgery!! :-)
See my profile for my OH Blog!!
Hi Laura
I love your post. It is so upbeat and positive. Congratulations on all the great stuff happening in your life. Yes, some people have difficulty dealing with the fact that someone who was once miserable has taken control of their life and is now happy. You know the saying- misery loves company. Ignore them and you just keep on adding more and more wow moments.
arlene
Arlene-
Thank you for the continued support! Since you are one of the ladies I looked toward as inspiration during my pre-surgery and post op days it does mean alot! I am just going to refocus on taking care of me and ignoring the misery of the others who are trying to bring me down. I think we all need to remember how precious our lives are now and not to take our new health for granted--we have all been through hell and back but we are stronger for it!!!
Thank you!! ((Hugs))
Laura
Thank you for the continued support! Since you are one of the ladies I looked toward as inspiration during my pre-surgery and post op days it does mean alot! I am just going to refocus on taking care of me and ignoring the misery of the others who are trying to bring me down. I think we all need to remember how precious our lives are now and not to take our new health for granted--we have all been through hell and back but we are stronger for it!!!
Thank you!! ((Hugs))
Laura
Laura
"Two roads diverged in a wood..and I took the one less travelled by and that has made all the difference." -Robert Frost
Over 176+ lbs lost since surgery!! :-)
See my profile for my OH Blog!!
Amazing post Laura, and right on! If you haven't already - copy it and paste it to your blog. I'm sure it will come in handy to someone else or even to you down the road to re read it.
Wonderful!
Congrats on all the wonderful things you are accomplishing!
Pam
Wonderful!
Congrats on all the wonderful things you are accomplishing!
Pam
Instead of complaining that the rosebush has thorns, be happy that the thorn bush has roses. 
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