crazy busy and a wow.. I think?
I thought once the holidays were over things would be a bit easier and less busy for me. I was so obviously wrong on that one! My daughter has left for Job Corps and just the process of getting her ready was insane. Thank goodness I had my income tax and could get her the things she really needed.
For some reason I really don't remember running after my kids when they were Addison's age. The girl just turned one.. already!! She is up and running, forget walking, she is running everywhere. You would think I would lose some weight with chasing her everywhere, but that's not the case.
I'm a little over three yrs postop and still struggle to become a "normal, healthy" weight. Now those who know me know I am a reality tv junkie. I love to watch them only because most times they are incredibly funny to watch the drama involved. Well, I've been watching the Biggest Loser. They are having open call auditions this weekend in NY City. Guess who is going?? Do I think I'm going to get chosen, heck no, but hey, it will be fun just to say that I've been there, right? I've told a few people that I'm going to audition, tonight, I was at a charity function and was telling a few ladies and one gentleman that my intention this weekend was to make it to NY and audition for the show. Well dont you know, four of the people that were involved in the conversation all told me there is no way on this earth they would accept me. I said why not, I could still lose about 70 lbs and would be considered healthy. They all laughed and said no way did I need to lose that much, I looked to good to need to lose that much. I had NO idea what to say, I just smiled and said thank you. So, I asked my mom if I should take that as a compliment, because I'm really not good at taking a compliment. She looked at me as if I were insane. Maybe I am? Or maybe my brain will never catch up and realize that I no longer weigh over 300 lbs? Either way, it kind of feels good to know others see me and assume that I look great.
For some reason I really don't remember running after my kids when they were Addison's age. The girl just turned one.. already!! She is up and running, forget walking, she is running everywhere. You would think I would lose some weight with chasing her everywhere, but that's not the case.
I'm a little over three yrs postop and still struggle to become a "normal, healthy" weight. Now those who know me know I am a reality tv junkie. I love to watch them only because most times they are incredibly funny to watch the drama involved. Well, I've been watching the Biggest Loser. They are having open call auditions this weekend in NY City. Guess who is going?? Do I think I'm going to get chosen, heck no, but hey, it will be fun just to say that I've been there, right? I've told a few people that I'm going to audition, tonight, I was at a charity function and was telling a few ladies and one gentleman that my intention this weekend was to make it to NY and audition for the show. Well dont you know, four of the people that were involved in the conversation all told me there is no way on this earth they would accept me. I said why not, I could still lose about 70 lbs and would be considered healthy. They all laughed and said no way did I need to lose that much, I looked to good to need to lose that much. I had NO idea what to say, I just smiled and said thank you. So, I asked my mom if I should take that as a compliment, because I'm really not good at taking a compliment. She looked at me as if I were insane. Maybe I am? Or maybe my brain will never catch up and realize that I no longer weigh over 300 lbs? Either way, it kind of feels good to know others see me and assume that I look great.
Well, well. There is something that alot of support people and therapist use with people who have an eating disorder and honestly do not see themselves the way the are. It's called body tracing. You get a big piece of butcher paper or some paper that is wide and on a roll. Place a sheet a bit taller than you on the wall. Stand against it. Have someone trace your outline on the paper. Then step away and look at yourself. You would be surprised at the reaction you will get. This not seeing yourself as you are is very normal and takes time. Have fun in NYC anyway lol!
Clueless about weight loss and weight loss surgery of any kind.
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