Total Meltdown

Ok so on other boards they would call this an attention ***** post. I am calling it a tantrum post. I just need to lose it for a minute. I AM SO DAMN UNCOMFORTABLE!!!  I AM SO SICK OF THE SWELLING, THE ITCHING,. THE BINDER, THE WEIRD SYMPTOMS, and NEW WEIRD LOOKING THINGS THAT COME UP DAILY.. If it isnt a egg shaped mass swelling up under my stomach and the incision, is a swelling between my boobs that make me look like I have a Nose between my boobs. I can barely do anything but go to work, and then I swell up, my bra and binder start to cut into me, and my hips and ass swell up. To top it off I STARTED MY FREAKIN PERIOD TODAY. I am DONE. I Want off!!!! I want my life back. It is hard to go from being Obese, to having so much energy range of motion and activity. To then being back on the couch doing nothing. How did I do this for 22 years? 
The incisions are starting to feel like they are pulling or tearing. They still look yucky. Aint nothing purty going on under these clothes yet. I want the steri strips GONE. I want the SWELLING GONE. I want to get a pedicure and manicure and facial. My skin is so rough and sallow. I want to wear something besides track suits. I WANT TO GO OUT FOR NEW YEARS EVE. I AM DONE DONE DONE!!!!!!!!
I AM HOT! IT IS HOT IN HERE!
Ok wow, that felt good. I feel guilty for whining. People, including members of this board have gone through, and are going through so much more than this. I just needed to crawl out of my skin and brain a moment

Hi,

You had some plastics done?  When I read your post, it reminded me about getting braces on the teeth.  All this medal in the mouth, the issues with eating, the name calling from classmates.  However, the end result is a beautiful smile.  Hang in there!  This too shall pass. Huuuugzzzz

Nicole

I'm so sorry you are so miserable.  It will get better.  Hang in there.  Have you tried wearing Spanx or similar?  They may be more comfortable than binder.  I am sick of having to wear a garment but when I take it off for a breather it feels weird.  It's actually more comfortable with it.  You will not be a couch potato forever.  You will get your life back.

Arlene 

*hugs* sorry to hear it is so frustrating! But we are all here to support you no matter what - ***** away! You have been through a lot and deserve it! When do you go back to see Dr Herman? Hopefully it is soon and the symptoms calm down by then.

Hope to see you soon!

Liz

There are times when we just need a good complaining.  And you are more than welcome to here.

As far as the swelling goes - have you talked to Dr. Herman about how bad it is?  Perhaps a small dose of a "water pill" like lasix or something like that would work.  I have a feeling a lot of the swelling will be held at bay now that your friend has come.  It might take another 5 days or so..but I know I retain water that time of the month.  They do sell over the counter water pills - I'm not sure how they work.

You WILL have your life back and you WILL have great results soon....not soon enough I'm sure...but soon. 

You won't be a couch potato forever - but doing so now will help your recovery.  It sucks - but use it to realize exactly how far you have come.

*hugs*

Pam

vent away... and thanks for being honest about it... not sure if I would trade you for all the swelling and itching for a puking toddler... not sure which is worse lol...

but I have taking otc water pills and it helped me some... I just took one once a day and in a week I lost about 10 pounds of water... and kept it off... so call the doc and ask him... but to heating pads or ice pads help with the itching and stuff?

Wow.  That was a first for me - to see such a long post first of all and then to vent.  The venting was much needed I think,  a nose between your boobs???!!!  I'd be FREAKIN' out!!!  No guilt allowed here, you know that.  No comparing - we each walk our journey and have our pieces and parts to process.  This is your piece, or part, or nose, or whatever and you processed it!  Although after all your successing and hard work I would have imagined a worse rant over your hips and ass swelling up!  But THEY WILL SHRINK back down.  :0)  Why are you waiting on a mani and pedi and facial???  DO IT NOW, sounds like you reaaaaalllllyyy need it right now to nurture yourself!  And hell, you sure do deserve it!!!!!

Keri

It was a nice rant. I felt better almost immediately, and I am shocked about that. I am even more shocked that it surpises me because i am a dagum therapist. DUH expressing your feelings to someone else actually helped??? LOL 
I appreciate you all and thank you for your love

Great Vent - You go Girl!! Sometimes it just needs to be done and no better place than here. I've had lots of surgeries in my day and none of them get easier, that's for sure. Never have gone thru what you are, tho, and it doesn't sound pleasant, but the end results will be worth it, I'm sure.

And just think, the new year is right around the corner and a new you! Hang in there - I'm sure it will get better, but in the meantime if you need to vent about all of it go right ahead - we'll listen, and not judge.

Kathy

Hey Nicole,
I am so sorry to hear you are so uncomfortable.  Wish I could say something to help you.  Is there anything the doctor can do for you?  My only suggestion would be is to try some relaxation exercises.  I do visualiztion exercises as much as possible these days.

Hang in there.

Hugs,
Trish