I'm not "a little heavy" or "large," I'm morbidly obese.

Hi Roberta, I think we all went through something like this, when we break through that denial. It's rough, but congrats on getting through it!! For me it happened when someone who had surgery tried to talk to me about it at Curves and I thought they were CRAZY! I didn't need surgery, despite my BMI being 50.4, I was fine! Well this woman planted a bug in my ear and I couldn't get the thought of surgery out of my head, no matter how hard I tried. Then I started doing research here and on other sites and realized, yep, I totally qualified for surgery. This is a tough tough spot, but now that you're at your emotional low you know what to do to come up again. Hang in there, reach out for support and information, it WILL pass. Amy Lap RNY 10/22/03 5'9: 349/203/180???