Confession

Oh boy Brandi - you want to know of one that really peeved me off when I was a smoker? I was waiting for my DH as he was getting his teeth cleaned at the dentist office. I went outside to have a cigarette...next to the ashtray that they provided for smokers, and a woman came by with 2 kids that were probably about 10-12 years old. She grabbed each one in her arms and covered their noses and mouths and pulled her coat as if to protect their bodies as they walked past me to go into the dentist's office. I was blown away. I mean - come on....you are walking past a smoker, not anthrax! She couldn't have been more absurd if she and her kids donned gas masks. Heck - her own Suburban puts out more toxic fumes upon ignition than breezing past one woman smoking! Hee hee ..... thankfully I am no longer a smoker. I no longer have to put up with idiots like that. And yes, as a former smoker, I do not like second hand smoke but I'm realistic and try to remember where I came from! Dina

Well, I've never been a smoker, but if smoke ever bothers me...I don't go near it. It's never bothered me much though. I overeat, some people smoke, some swear, some have other bad habits...Everyone has hangups. We should support each other, not Judge each other! OK, today could not have started out Much worse...the babisitter is MIA, had to bring the kidlet to work with me, she's going to be bored out of her mind. I can't wait 'till tonight!! Tam

You've been very good at putting up with my gutter mouth "AND" smoking.. LOL call me on your break!! Theresa

OMG What break? My babysitter called in sick, so I have Amy with me, and the center I work at just had a fire drill! Trying to get 120 kids out the door while part of the staff is on break! When I catch my breath I'll call you. Tam

Hugs Brandi, I've never smoked, never wanted to. But boy do I like to eat! I think I've been grieving over losing my old friend, food. Just like you wanting to smoke, I want to eat everything in sight. It's so frustrating, because I am going to be giving up my friend, food. I know I'll have to do something besides eat, and right now, I just don't know what that will be. In time, I'll be okay, just working through all this new stuff. I'm also on wellbutrin, and it has helped me a lot. My doctor had to "tweak" the dosage until it was just right. I just wonder if your doctor needs to "tweak" yours a little. It's worth a try. I think people give up on anti-depressants too soon, especially if they don't think it works. I've been on several others, but wellbutrin works for me very well, thank you. Don't ever give up on yourself. I've given up on myself so many times before. This time I'm not giving up on me. You are blessed and you are loved. Our lives are rich because we have been blessed with love and affection. God is good! Hugs, Roberta

Thank you Roberta!! It's hard, it's soo hard. I consider myself lucky that the Wellbutrin is killing my apetite, but not my craving for smokes. I have set a quit date for next monday, a gal from work and I are going to do it together, and I think I am going to get the patch to help me along with the wellbutrin. I can only hope that I don't gain weight!! LOL! I see my PCP again on the 10th of next month and I will ask her about tweaking the dose, that could be just the extra push that will help me out! Brandi