food addict HELP!

HELP!

Omg *crys*

I dont know what to do any I dont have anybody to help me!

I am an addict.....of all sorts......it USED to be drugs and alch........then when i got clean it was FOOD. I now am a lil over a yr out since my gastric pypass and am struggling soooooooooo bad! I never changed my eating habbits! I am always sick because I eat the wrong foods or i over eat and my body rejects it......or i feel so sick i make myself vomit! I started drinking again too! I keep tryin to stop my addiction......im trying to eat healthy but i fail i fail i fail everyday i fail...........when your an addict your supposed to stay clear of what your addicted toooooooo but when your addiction is food what do u do? I have to eat to live.....but over eating or eating crap is gonna kill me to im just gonna end up gaining my weight back and i caaaaaaaaant do that id rather die! Or ima hurt my pouch  I am scared and upset and I dont know what to do. I am beyond depressed and dont even know why anymore. I have no energy to do anything even my son dosnt interest me! HOW HORRIBLE AND SAD IS THAT! I dont know what to do or where to turn to anymore! I need somone like holding my hand and telling me ok eat this eat that no no dont eat this dont eat that im to weak to do it alone!  I have come soooo far! I cant fail now I just cant! Sorry this is just one huge vent!

First I would see a doc about dealing with your depression because that just makes you unable to move forward. Next contact Overeaters Anonymous to see if they have chapter near you. Just like substance abuse, food abuse needs support from others dealing with the same issue. As you point out it is one thing to leave drugs and alcohol alone but far more difficult when you have to eat to stay alive. Does your surgeon have a support group? Or see if any other bariatric surgeons near you have a support group you can join. I wish you well, hang in there and take it one step at a time!

oh? i have never heard of that! Thanks! I will check into that!

My suggestion would be to find a support group or accountability partner. Use this forum too, there is a bunch of us waiting to help.
Blessings!

thnx <3

Hi Michelle! I'm an addict too. Cigarettes and food are my current substances. I can branch out into spending if I'm not careful. Have also had periods of social drinking, but could see it going out of control if my other crutches disappear. In my past, I also had serial relationships or was too clingy.

What the heck will I do with my stress/emptyness if I can't turn to stuffing myself? I think that's one of the factors that has been keeping me from stepping up and having surgery.

I've gone to OA for short periods, but I think maybe it is a good idea to reconsider and take a new look at it.

You've taken a great step in just posting so honestly.

Lol it's "Michael" just like a guys name......


Ya I just quit cigs like almost 3 weeks ago? I was smoking over a pack a day since i quit I have had 4 cigs.......havnt had one in a few days now and stayin strong but now i wanna eat more -_-
and ya i do the spending thing too! I now give my money to my father........so I cant spend it......I have to go to him when i need money its pathetic............and ya same deal with the relationships......uhggggg its pathatetic all of it........i wish i could just be better! I told my self i can do it i cant do and i had my surgery over a yr ago but gosh damn is it hard! OMG ITS SO HARD! :(

Oops, Michael. Sorry. That's my brother's name (he's an ass), so I must have an avoidance to typing it - LOL.

I was thinking more about this and recalled that there used to be a forum for Addictions here on OA. I found one on Mental Health, but it looks pretty quiet.

  http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/mental-health/

Also try WLS grads
http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/wls_grads/

Hi,
I live in Eugene had by pass in june 08 maybe we can meet sometime for cofee. I have a friend she has the band and we go to coffee at least once a week ride bikes 3 or 4 times a week you r welcome to join us.
Tracey
541 688 9160