Grateful

Goodmorning!  I am 16 days out of surgery and I am 14 lbs down.  Unbelievable.  I have not been at this weight in 25 years.  Presurgery I would have been ecstatic over a 1 or 2 lbs loss.  I can't even put into words what this actually feels like.  I am filled with gratitude and hope.  I have never lost weight to know I would never again see this weight .  Now as the numbers slide down the scale I am filled with incredulous joy.  I am being released from this mass of flesh to find the woman that has been hiding beneath. 
It is exciting to watch and be fully present for the experience of seeing eye hunger arise, mouth hunger arise, and nose hunger to arise and check with my stomach and find no hunger at all.  Not even a little room for just a taste.  WOW.  Unbelievable. 
All of my life I have been ruled by all of these suttle forms of hunger and never new the difference.  Now they are distictly clear as my stomach is saying loud and clear NO.  My head is slow to realise I can no longer hold a 20 oz drink, not even a 12 oz.  I find myself wanting to order the extra large sizes only to end up throwing it away.  Yeah!!!  
I am unsure of what I need as this is so new and then amazed at how little it actually takes to fill my pouch.  The rest of me is not ready to be done, the mouth says no I want more taste, where is my party? The head says where is my satiated experience?  What an exciting adventure to love myself through this whole process. 
Gratitude is such a small word and yet the whole world diminishes in the magnitude of the experience.  Thanks for my miracle.  Linda

Linda,
I love the way you have expressed your feelings concerning your WLS. I could really feel your joy and happiness and that makes me all the more sure of my own decision to have this done.

Vicki

I am so excited for you to have your surgery.  When I woke up from the surgery I had a hugh smile on my face.  I knew with all my being that I had done the right thing.  I was so confident in the my surgeon and I just knew my outcome was going to be great.  Keep a positive attitude and all will be as it should.  I will be thinking great thought for you as you approach your surgery day.  Linda

Linda...I'm soooo happy to hear you are doing so well with your new life..I haven't been arond on the boards but you have been on my mind. BIG HUGS

I am doing so wonderful I can hardly believe it.  Thank you for all of your support it helped me to be completely ready.  I would love to see you all soon.  Linda

i must say I as the supporting spouse am pretty grateful as well. What an adventure. I am off to work at sea for 45 days I can not wait to see who will greet me when I get home.
Thank you all
Taylor

I'm so happy for you Linda!  It is truly an amazing journey.  I still find myself getting up to cook dinner and putting two hamburger patties on the grill -- then I end up having to take one for lunch the next day, because I can't even finish one!  My mom always did say my eyes were bigger than my basket, but that was when I was a little girl.  My basket got plenty big in later years.  I'm glad it's small again.

All the best to you!
Linda