Normal Thoughts?

Perfectly normal?????????????? I have been self sabotaging myself lately, in regards of my pending surgery Dec 12.  Until my last visit to the Dr., I had  been doing extremely well.  I followed the suggested diet plan given to me by the dietician. I have lost 32 pounds to date.  I began an exercise program, and have challenged the distance I walk weekly, by adding a little bit more to my route. I have been drinking my water.  ALL POSITIVES.    This last week, I am beginning to have  serious doubts about my pending surgery.   From what I understand, this is perfectly normal and expected.  Wondering if I am making the correct decision?  Can I be successful.  Can I really do this and be committed?    I am getting SCARED!!!!     This past week, I have been nibbling on foods that I shouldn't be, thinking, oh, I won't be able to eat this anymore, or it won't hurt me.  I have been negligent in my daily walks, (doesn't matter that it has been raining the past few days).  I haven't the gumption to walk, when I know that I need to do this.  My weight loss has also stalled.  I am back sliding to my old eating habits.      My surgery is about 3 1/2 weeks away, and I need a huge kick in the butt......and I need to motivate myself to continue in the right direction. 

Bran - it's LAST SUPPER syndrome.  I think just about everyone does it.  You've been so good and you realize there are somethings you just won't ever be able to have again.  Well, not in mass quantities, anyway, so you self-sabotage a bit.  Once you have the surgery, you won't be able to eat a lot of that stuff any more.  I know it's different with the band, but there are still things that will tend to make you sick.  Plus, you will be full so much quicker.  I kept up my walking before surgery, and I stuck to my  1200 calorie a day diet, but that doesn't mean that some of those 1200 calories weren't pure garbage! Linda

Oh yeah, you are normal! You are doing so much better than I did-I only managed to lose a measly 6 lbs before my surgery. It was awful, because my liver was huge and the surgery took way longer than it should have. I was so ashamed of myself. At last you've already lost a significant amount-you should be very proud of yourself! Write down everything you eat on thedailyplate.com or fitday-that will help keep you accountable. Best of luck-you can do this!