Need advice please help

Hi all  please help me I need some advice… ok a little about me first I had rny 9/25/06  almost 10 months ago  I was in and out of the hospital 3 time they said I almost died 2 of the time  I was sick all the time so stupid me stop eating all together  come to find out something on me complete closed up they had to put a balloon down my throat to reopen it (forgot the name of it)  because of not eating my protein and potassium was so low  they thought I might die I have 3 kids and I scared them to death so  I made myself start eating the whole reason I did this was so I could be more healthy and do more stuff with them so when I almost died  and my mom told me that my kids were so scared and that my oldest was crying to her saying mom will be ok right  I  knew I needed to do something  about it so  after getting it fixed 2  time by a dr. in a er that didn’t know what he was doing  (I didn’t have a car anymore it blow up and couldn’t get to the town where my Real DR. was)  I finally said enough is a enough and starting looking for anyone to take me to  the hospital  finally someone I did take me so the I had it done by him and then started eating and it would stay done  I moved back to Oregon soon after I seen him and got out of the hospital  to be close to my mom  im doing better now my protein and potassium level are normal  I have lost 153 pounds  but now im afraid I am eating to much and all the wrong stuff my pouch is so picky I mostly eat chicken 4 or 5 meals a day  to get my protein in but  hear lately I have started doing and eating stuff that is bad for me cuz im sick of chicken alone  so with my picky pouch I found that only thing that I like (very picky eater) that don’t hurt  or come back up are chips so I eat 2 pieces of chicken and a hand full of chips yes I said chips lol I know it bad for me  but im so sick of just chicken I also started drinking diet coke a lot of it a day at least a 2 liter  I hear it was not good for us either??? and I also started smoking again  (bad me )  I cant see a dr. here another then my pcp  and he don’t know much about it I need help so I don’t mess this up  I only have 20 pounds to go until I meet goal(if u wanna see a before and kinda after pic its in my profile) but it has slow down so much and im afraid im eating to much  please help me I need some advice what to change how to do it  and how much to eat  I want to quit smoking again but wonder should I do it all at once or just give up pop then cig or what Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Honey - give it all up, NOW!  You had this surgery to be healthy and you're SMOKING?  There are things to help you quit - Chantix is a good one.  If you must eat carbs, try something whole grain, like Triscuit crackers -- the low fat ones.  Can you eat fish?  Most folks tolerate tuna and salmon pretty well.  Trader Joes has frozen Crab Cakes that are really good and my ex-boyfriend (who had RNY) really liked them and did well with them.  As for the diet coke -- put a piece of steak in a bowl of diet coke and let it sit.  If you can find that piece of meat the next day, you'll be lucky.  The police use it to clean blood off the highway in an accident.  You can't find a more corrosive thing to be putting in that pouch.  Now you've not only scared your three kids, you're scaring me too.  Get back on a healthy plan and throw out the cigs and the diet coke for heaven's sake!!  Those chips are the baked kind, right? Linda

Take a look at why you are making these choices for yourself... the answer is inside of you.  It sounds corny but ...... If you can't figure it out yourself then find a supportive therapist and work through it.  There are so many reasons why we make the choices for ourselves that we do..... good luck to you