Having a rough day....

Hi Everyone... I have had a rough day today, which is hard because I am always the cheerful, uplifted person that usually gets OTHER people's sprits up....I had surgery on 5/18. I don't regret the surgery, I just wonder when I will get to that "OMG!! I am so HAPPY I had the surgery" feeling? I know everyone who is a ways out from surgery says they'd do it all over again in heartbeat and that is what I am trying to focus on, but it is so hard. I am getting everything in that I am suppose to and I know that it is common to be blue in the weeks after WLS, I would just like to know when you all got to the point where you thought it was worth all the sacrifice and pain? Please tell me it is soon....

Hey Kristal, I am in the same boat as you, I just got home yesterday from being banded and I think I am still just in shock that I actually went through with everything, and I am just getting used to the drastic change. I hope your day goes a little better tomorrow!

I have been thinking and praying for you, Beth! I hope all went well? : ) I have actually been pretty sane through this whole process, but yesterday was hard. I know it will get better. I just wait for the honeymoon phase to get here! LOL!

I am sorry to hear your day was challenging.  I will pray for you.  Take care. Carrie

Hi Kristal, It's normal to have a storm of emotions, (sometimes several per day!), after surgery. Since we are no longer able to suppress negative emotions by stuffing ourselves until we're numb, we have to tough it out and actually feel it. I got very depressed a couple weeks out-the pain pills were one of the main causes of it for me. I also had the "what have I done to myself?" thoughts as I tried to get used to the pureed food, then taking those damned tiny bites and chewing. I promise you that it does get better. As you start to lose weight you'll have a lot more energy and it'll be worth it. Hang in there! Take care, Lisa

I am with Lisa, in that the pain pills didn't help that sort of "dumpy" feelings I had after the surgery.  Actually, I gave up the pain pills a day or two after I left the hospital.  The pain level was definately at a 3 or below, and I just hate that groggy, lethargic feeling the pain pills left me with.  I am lucky, in that I have felt pretty up-beat most of the time, but there have been a few times that the energy level just dropped and I felt as though I couldn't walk another step. One of the things that has kept me in sort of a positive mode, is that I am looking for Wow moments, and am relishing everyone one of them...and making even the tiniest things that I notice a "wow" for me.  For instance, I measured my lap, which was about 3", and it is now about 6".  That is a big deal for me.  I doubt if it is a lot of weight loss, but it is water, gas build-up and the extra puffiness I had from eating poorly and not eliminating properly.  Another "wow" that I made up in my mind is that I can walk almost all the way into the baseball center where my grandson's play baseball.  I have used a cane, walker or wheel chair, but now I can walk in all by myself.  Now, this could seem like a cool thing, but the reality is that it's more in my attitude about myself than in my ability to do this.  I probably could have done it before, but I just didn't think I could, and didn't trust myself. So, give yourself some credit.  Maybe a "wow" moment for you is that you saw this thing through, and that is enough.  I hope you wil relish the tiniest moments....look at them as though they are big wow moments.  Give yourself credit for how awesome you are doing.  I think those of us who have been obese have spent a lot of time beating ourselves up, and we don't always give ourselves credit for what we are or have done!  You have accomplished an amazing feat...you have had weight loss surgery....now that is awesome!   I hope this doesn't sound "preachy"....it's just that I really want you to be proud of what your accomplishing....it's so awesome!