Post-op question

I am 9 months post op and have lost 129lbs so far (96 post-op) and I love the weight loss, but I have noticed lately feeling a little differant in my own skin. I have been overweight all of my life and it just feels a little off to be "skinny". Do get me wrong I love it most of the time, but then part of me just feels a little uncomfortable, like I am not sure who I am anymore. I am not the fat girl, but I don't know the new me yet either. I was at Ross on Friday with a friend and she says out loud "why doesn't Roxy make a plus size", I of course sarcaticly say "they do its their size 10" meaning in the fashion world that is "plus". I identify with the plus size girl jokes, I come from a family where most of us are over weight, my daughter is over weight, and now I am not and it just feels weird. Thanks for listening

Hi tomasina, I have not had surgery yet. And I've been overweight all my life so I dont know how it would feel to be skinny or even "overweight" for that matter. But I think you just need to let your head catch up to your new and improved body I also think talking with your support people or here at oh will help you alot good luck and congrats on your weight loss so far, that is fantastic.....God bless you cj

Hi Tomasina! I'm 8 months out and down 125 pounds and I could have written exactly what you wrote! I feel "weird" in my own skin too. I still think of myself as the 300+ pound person I was before surgery. In my minds eye, that is still how I see myself. So when I pass a mirror or window where I catch a glimpse of my image, it startles me. I hold up clothing and think there is so feasible way I could squeeze into it and then it fits. But my mind keeps questioning how? I went to a Plus Size clothing store with my sister yesterday and tried on the smallest size they had. The sales clerk asked me if anything fit and I said "no." She laughed and said "I knew you were too small for our clothes!" That was honestly the best thing anyone could have ever said to me! But in my mind, I don't understand how I could be too small for their clothes! I too have been overweight my whole life so this is a very new concept to me. I feel awkward and I feel like I don't quite know how to carry myself yet. Hopefully we'll grow into it soon! Deanna

OMG! I just read your blog and I just had the same problem with bras. This could be TMI, but I where 2 bras now. One is the padded push up and then I wear a sports bra over it to hold it all together, lol. I was thinking about going to a bra store, but I do not want to spend too much on one until I am closer to my goal weight. I also totally relate to the skin, I knew going in that I would have extra skin, but never in my wildest dream thought I would be able to pull my skin 3-4 inches off my body. My insurance doesn't cover any plastics, so I do not see a lower body lift in my near (or long term) future, but I would like to work on my breast and arms. I also wear nylons or a girdel (spelled wrong), it really helps hold my upper belly in so my shirts look better. Do you have children?

Pulling up the skin---gives a whole new meaning to "pinch an inch" doesn't it!! More like wad up several inches in your hand, if you are like me and my buttocks and upper posterior thighs!! However my first surgery will be the TT. Julia

Hi Tomasina! Yes, I have two children ages 2 and 6. Do you have any? My insurance won't pay for plastics either and I don't know what I'll do. I really, really, really will need some sort of work on my stomach and a breast reduction and lift will definately be a necessity too! I don't know how in the world I'll ever pay for that ... maybe I should start buying lottery tickets! Ha, ha! Deanna

I am almost 2 years out and still struggle with this a lot. Time does help, but it is still really strange. Best wishes to you and yours Isha 366/147/170 Reached goal 6/4/06 sw cw gw -219 GONE FOREVER www.duodenalswitch.com Eat NORMAL and Lose!!!

I know exactly what you mean. Even at 2 years, I still feel the same way. I'm having my first plastic surgery Jan. 29, and I keep wondering if I'll look different. Duh.....I keep telling myself that of course I will, otherwise why go through that? I just can't relate.........it's like other people can do it and look different, but I might just stay the same? I really have no sense of what I have accomplished. It's weird.