I hate this dont know where to start to make changes,,

Ok so this is when the panic sets in. Every time I want to start a new diet I am excited I get as much information as possible. I tell everyone that is important to me. I take a deep breath and then I PANIC!!!! I need to go to the store and go grocery shopping. I want to begin to try to make the changes that I will need to make for the surgery; so ok, I just need to shop smart. ?º How hard can that be? I HATE THIS!!!. I get in the store and freeze I end up leaving with nothing because I don¡¦t know what to buy or if I do know what to buy I have to shop for 5 other people to. Bla bla bla,, This is partly why diets seem to not work for me; I just don¡¦t know where to start. Then I get started and it becomes all obsessive. Besides the fact that I know I will fail once again. I hate failing. I just want to eat when I am hungry and not weigh, count, dissect every ingredient, and feel like crap. When I go thru this food becomes such a focus its all I think about, I wish food was something I could just quit,, just choose to not eat again. I know I am being a baby today. I know I must be being hormonal because while I am writing this I'm sad because my husband is deer hunting without me. Because I can¡¦t hike the mountains anymore my butt is tooooo big. Dang I have a hard time just walking to a foot ball game on a level path. He wanted me to go but I just hate to slow him down... I don¡¦t want to be this any more! It¡¦s such a vicious circle, ok so if I don¡¦t want to be this anymore then I just need to loose the weight. Ok where do I begin, I am hoping to have the surgery soon but as I have read this doesn¡¦t always happen as soon as we like, I figure I can start eating smaller meals maybe do a liquid diet? Any suggestions?

When do yout Tricare benefits kick in and how long after they do do you have to wait? I urge you to disregard what you read, it isn't always accurate. Find a doc tht will work with you, as mine did for me. Let the process take you one step at a time and follow whatever the steps are. Now, go to Barnes and Noble. Get some coffee and a comfy chair. Browse through the cookbook, wellness and food shopping books. What you want is a low-fat, healthy meal plan for your family, not a diet. This will do two things: get you involved in something that will make you feel better and keep your mind off missing your husnband. You may even find something that will give you some direction on the food front. And, Kelly, go with your husband when he invites you........If you can't hike the mountains, do smaller hikes and establish base camp. Don't let that low self esteem keep you from enjoying his company or him enjoying you. tee