Another MIA stepping forward

Hey all, I have been away for a while. I check back once in a while to see if I can find someone from the Niagara area. Did once, now lost the info (message me if you wanna have coffee again) I have been browsing the site for about a week.

I have been struggling for the past 16 months because of struggles in my marriage. Right now the way I feel I have control is by weighing and measuring everything once again. But of course I go to extremes and keep my calories too low. I gained about 30 pounds in that time and want to get back to a normal BMI range.

I know about eating disorders, I have dealt with them for a long time. But I live in fear every day of my life and keeping control in one area is the only peace I have right now. Maybe not healthy but since I cannot find a reliable counsellor in my area I do the best I can. 

The one thing I can say about Guelph is they are continuously there for support. I have had a number of appointments with the SW and dietician since September my 4 year anniversary and they will be there as much as I need them. They are super awesome, so if you have struggles don't wait until you feel like a failure or until your yearly appointment. Call them up and go in.

Liz

Hey Liz

Long time no see, not to worry, we can regain control of this weight gain mess we're in. 

Trust me, it will take some time but we WILL do it.

Laurie

Thanks Laurie, it is good to hear support.

Saw you place yourself in Collingwood, we have had two ski weeks at Blue so far this winter and one more the first week in March. When I tried on my ski pants I was so disappointed my pants fit to the point that I felt they might rip if I wore them. So I bought new ones, after ten days of limiting my food and a 10 pound loss I wonder if I might fit in them by March.

Hi Liz,

You don't know me but when I read your message I had to reply.

I'm not trying to be nosy, but you mentioned struggles with your marriage and living in fear every day of your life. Are those two comments related? If so, please know that help is available and you're not alone.

If not, please excuse the misunderstanding. I just believe that we need to all look out for each other.

Thank you betony63 for the concern, in some ways related but not physical abuse. There have been a few times where I believe I will be basically put out on the street as threats have been made.

our family is very religious and there are issues with that, too much to explain. He believes I am the problem with our relationship and he is okay with me seeking counselling but he has no need of it.

I live on pins and needles everyday 

Having lived with threats myself, I know they can be just as damaging as physical abuse. It took me a long time to learn that abuse is abuse, whether it's verbal, emotional, economical...

I hope you are able to seek counselling for yourself to get some support. You DO NOT deserve to live this way.

Wishing you every good thing!

Thanks again for the support. 

A weird thing happened last time I was inThornbury at a timeshare, my former psychologist was there and we went out for coffee. She said I could keep in touch, even Skype. I might have to get over the guilt of using her for free and just take her up on the contact.

thanks for the well wishes and looking forward to getting to know you better

I would run with it! Your psychologist wouldn't have offered her help if she didn't mean it. :)

Glad to have you back. Sounds like you are living with a hard situation. I hope you can come to some resolution.

i think the best thing is what you are doing with the weighing and measuring will help you get back to the weight you want.

Hi Patm, it is good to be back. Perhaps the support here will help me along the way. My scale and measuring utensils are becoming my best friends along with spark people calorie count.