Reaching out ?? and feeling alone...
Would suggest you see a professional to help you sort out your feelings. It is the most helpful thing I have ever done for my mental/spiritual health and I highly recommend. Talk to your doctor, maybe he or she can suggest a therapist to help you sort out your feelings. Take care and just look at how far your have come - you are almost there! Best of luck to you...
Highest: 320, Surgery: 255 (Aug/14), Lowest: 132, Current: 167, Goal: 155
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