My Journey So Far at 6 Years Out (Extremely Long and Wordy)

Diminishing Dawn
on 7/18/12 5:41 am - Windsor, Canada
Diana,

You have so much losing time left.  You are doing terrific and I'm sure that although it will be slow loss, that it will come. 

Thanks for the time and sentiment :) 

Dawn

17+ years post op RNY. first year blog here or My LongTimer blog. Tummy Tuck Dr. Matic 2014 -Ohip funded panni Windsor WLS support group.message me anytime!
HW:290 LW:139 RW: 167 CW: 139

niceeyes72
on 7/18/12 5:47 am
RNY on 03/23/12
Thank you thank you thank you!!!!! A million times thank you!!!! 
I know we are all aware of the immediate changes...look forward to them actually. But we NEED to hear the experiences you/others went through since surgery! Quite frankly, 6 years post op is a lot of experience to share!!! your post was short considering!!! lol

 We are all human and make mistakes/have challenges/head issues..... if it weren't for those problems we'd all be perfect and there's no fun in that!! lol
I think most of us have the big fear of regain.... quite natural I presume..... I am happy for you that you got control of it while still manageable. You look amazing and are truly an inspiration!!!
Thank you for your post

Tam
Highest Weight: 365lbs Clinic Weight: 325lbs Clinic goal:190 lbs Current Weight: 176.4lbs My goal:165lbs
Surgery: Dr. Yelle Ottawa on March 23, 2012

Diminishing Dawn
on 7/18/12 6:06 am - Windsor, Canada
I'm so glad I chose to post this today. I've never been so scared to post something.  Glad that it is resonating with many.

Yep. I'm human.  Terribly human!

All the best to you! 

Dawn

17+ years post op RNY. first year blog here or My LongTimer blog. Tummy Tuck Dr. Matic 2014 -Ohip funded panni Windsor WLS support group.message me anytime!
HW:290 LW:139 RW: 167 CW: 139

lexxiblue
on 7/18/12 6:09 am
RNY on 01/11/12
OMG... can you come to our next support group  meeting!!!
Diminishing Dawn
on 7/18/12 6:13 am - Windsor, Canada

LOL.  Will you pay me? Ha ha :) 

I'm guessing that's a compliment?  

I'm far more entertaining in words than in real life. Don't let me fool ya! ha ha :) 

Dawn

17+ years post op RNY. first year blog here or My LongTimer blog. Tummy Tuck Dr. Matic 2014 -Ohip funded panni Windsor WLS support group.message me anytime!
HW:290 LW:139 RW: 167 CW: 139

Karine
on 7/18/12 6:27 am - Canada
VSG on 06/25/12
Hi,

I have read all of it, and you had me crying.  No I personnally don't think you should have pre ops read this.  Personnally, as a bing eater, I might very well have changed my mind after reading this.

There is a difference, an enourmous difference between "knowing" that surgery doesn't solve the head issues and "witnessing or reading" a 6 years vets that has your difficulties. 

Today, you opened my eyes.  I am a binge eater.  I always planned my binges.  I felt rewarded by them. 

Now, I don't feel the urge to binge anymore since surgery, but hey, seems like it is just a matter of time and reading you scared me to death. (well in a good way you know)

I will have to work on that, but to be honest, I don't feel like I can now.  I know this is bad to say this, I know I should, after having read your post, be running to a psychologist or at least a support group, but I can't "accept, hear, or talk about it" it makes me so vulnerable, crying, just like reading you today.

May I keep your name for the day I want to go to a support group?

Thanks, I will bookmark your post, I think it's important that I read it occasionnaly!

Karine.

P.S. Being a binge eater, I want to tell you one thing:  you are not a failure, you are stronger that ever, because before, your bing eating would have taken you all the way up to a 26-28, but you controlled it just in time.

Gastroscopy: May 26th 2012                   SW + HW 360
Labs: May 30th 2012                                Post opti   341.2
SD:  June 25th 2012                                Post op     338.6       

    

Diminishing Dawn
on 7/18/12 6:41 am - Windsor, Canada
Hi Karine,

Sorry if this upset you.  That is great that you don't have the urge to binge anymore. It took quite some time before I started the behaviour.  You are powerful right now so embrace that you have control over it.  That's wonderful.  You MAY have difficulty later on, you MAY not.  Who knows?

When and if you are ready to deal with your head issues, know that other people are out there and going through it. Know that you are not alone.  Know that there are others that you can reach out to when you need to and that therapy is a really good thing when you are ready.  If it's not a problem for you right now, that's fantastic...but it's not a good thing for us to put our head in the sand and ignore it when it happens.  Therapy is always a good thing....but it's when you NEED it and when you WANT it.  Who knows? Perhaps you may have beaten the binge.  Some people may not struggle with it anymore.  Many people (especially those that know what it is like to be thin and do moderation) are just fine.  I'm just one of the ones that struggled. 

Again, sorry that it made you sad.

Dawn

17+ years post op RNY. first year blog here or My LongTimer blog. Tummy Tuck Dr. Matic 2014 -Ohip funded panni Windsor WLS support group.message me anytime!
HW:290 LW:139 RW: 167 CW: 139

Karine
on 7/18/12 6:58 am - Canada
VSG on 06/25/12
Oh Dawn, don't be sorry, I think it is important that I know that it doesn't magically disappear.  I have had therapy, but not directly about binge eating.  I am, according to the therapist, the most challenging person he had so far, when it comes to making me talk.  But I moved and that therapist was such a good one, that I started to trust, after months of therapy, dealing with lots of my head issues.  We were going to start talking about binging, when I moved. 

So I spend a lot of money on just blablas before I can say something important and personnal. :)

At some point, I will try to find someone else, but I am french speaking and living in Toronto, so talking about head issues in another langage when I can barely find suitable words in my own language is difficult.  Trusting someone new, someone I don't understang everthing he / she says, also difficult!  But I will deal with it.

Thanks for your post, again, it is an eye opener!  But I still think might not be good for someone pre op, too scary!  Remember when you were pre op.  You know it's not magic, but do we really have the backbone to really KNOW that afetr 6 years, it will still be the same?  I am not sure, but again maybe it's just me!

Keep posting, and you know, now that you have started, you can give us more!  lol!!!

Gastroscopy: May 26th 2012                   SW + HW 360
Labs: May 30th 2012                                Post opti   341.2
SD:  June 25th 2012                                Post op     338.6       

    

happypants
on 7/18/12 6:28 am - Ottawa, Canada
Dawn I have to say that I have always appreciated your comments on the board. Not once have your condemned people or belittled them for "making a poor choice" instead you offer encouragement and support and I appreciate that and respect you so much for this. 

I'm truly sorry to read about your struggles over the last 6 years. My one year mark is July 22nd. Reading your post sure has enlightened me about the possibility of regain, thank you so much for posting about it.

You have truly help me SO much this last year and a half that I have been a member of OH and for that I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I know I've told you this before but I honestly don't think I've said it enough.
 
All the best in year 7 for you!!

Ann

 

In order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear of failure.

Surgery July 22, 2011  Starting weight 270  128 lbs lost  Today's weight 142 lbs                 Ann       

 
                                                   

  

Diminishing Dawn
on 7/18/12 6:43 am - Windsor, Canada
Thanks Ann so much for the truly awesome words.  I always try to be aware that people that are feeling weak don't need to be kicked anymore.  Lord knows, i often feel like one of them.  Thanks for the compliment.  It's appreciated. 

I'll look forward to reading YOUR one year out post :) 

Dawn

17+ years post op RNY. first year blog here or My LongTimer blog. Tummy Tuck Dr. Matic 2014 -Ohip funded panni Windsor WLS support group.message me anytime!
HW:290 LW:139 RW: 167 CW: 139

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