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Thanks,
Lois
Anyway, this was the best birthday I've had since losing my parents. I believe that I've turned loose of a lot of the pain of their deaths, plus other events that occured around the same time. My husband, step children, sister, nieces, aunts, cousins, and friends had tried to fill the void, but it was more about me getting over it than it was any other external influences. It was like the weight was me punishing myself for living.
Anyway, here are some pictures presurgery and on my birthday.
Fall of 2008 on vacation. This makes me want to cry. I fell on this trip because of my weight (240#).
2 days before surgery, on vacation 211#. I was better, but couldn't even walk halfway up the Statue of Liberty.
June 18, 2010; going to dinner with my DH on vacation in Eureka Springs AR, weighing about 145#. I'm happy to report the vacation didn't interfere with losing.

Hello WLS buds! I haven't been on here in a while. I'm back! I miss the support and SUPPORT is what I'm needing right now! I have so much going on that its CRAZY! As do most of you I'm sure!
I am not maintaining well. I was until I hurt my hip about 3 months ago! I quit exercising and have been eating anything and everything I want. NOW my hip is healed and I'm still not exercising and still eating! I'm up about 10 lbs! I haven't wanted to admit it because that means I've failed again! But I have to admit it because I am not too far gone to do something about it.
I just don't understand how I can go through all I've been through...First, by living my entire life as a Heavy unhealthy person. Then with the blessing of my WLS on Dec 16, 2008 and in Sept of 2009 Full TT, Arm Lift, Breast implants, and Lift only to regain my weight! Something in my head is saying I'm gonna fail, something is just not working for me and I have to find out what it is so I can get back on track. I keep telling myself to get back to the basics, thats what I would tell any of you...But when I try I just DONT DO IT! Why am I setting myself up to fail????? Its like I just don't care what I put in my mouth and thats what got me to where I was in the first place!!!!
I know part of my problem is that with my weight loss and total body transformation my husband is having a really hard time. He is really insecure and scared I'm going to leave him. (we have an awesome marriege and I have no thoughts of ever being without him!) I know this is his problem but this is someone I love more then life itself! I know he loves my new look and loves me being healthy. But he is so insecure that sometimes I think it was easier before I lost my weight. Thats crap! I know, but thats just some of the crap running through my head!
I'm sorry I haven't been on in a while, but I just hope I can get some good advice from some wonderful people and support is really needed!
Thanks so much!
Hugs,
Kim J!
I'm really happy for you! You are living the good life and doing what you need to do!
Keep up the good work!
Hugs
KimJ!
I am pretty sure he does everything for us after WLS folks.

I MY RNY 5-5-09
Life is Good
I cant wait to meet you in person...are you scheduled for the pre-op class next week? If so, see you then!!!
Leah