My 1st year Firsts

I was thinking today about some of my milestone firsts that I have tried this year. I thought I would share because it just amazed me. I was going to put this on another WLS site but I think everyone might like them and could realte to them. This year, i am in first size 10 ever. In high school I was a 12. I do not ever remeber buying anything a size 10. I know its just a number.. but its just amzing to someone who just used to glance and sigh. This year, I attended my childrens soccer games. before, I was too embarrassed to go find the information for them.. much less take them and go. This year, I started writing a jornal that is slowly turning itself into a book. I may just have the guts to try and publi**** This year, i discovered that Beth An is still a strong woman. I just needed to find where she was and learn to take contol. This year, I have made it on my own with my children. We are no worse for wear. I learned that I can say no.. you hurt my and still make it. Not that being overweight kept me where I was but rather, it was instrumentzl in me losing my self confidence. This year, I went to the movies and sat in a regualr seat with space to spare. I had not been since 1995. I didnt have to sit sideways or ask for a regular chair and sit in the wheel chair spot. This year, I wen****er intertubing. OMG! That is a riot.. even for me and I am afreaid of the water. The only bad part to this was that everytime I fell off my first thoughts were not about drowning or being left behind, but rather that a giant catfish was going to swim up and eat me! This year, I work my very first 2 piece tankini and bikini! Granted I was much for comfortable in the tankini since I havent had a tummy tuck, the point is I wore one. I still wear it when I go to the lake. The bikini i save for laying out in the yard at home for now. It is quite the rush when you realize, hey.. look at me! This year, I have realized that it is ok to be a little vain. I take more time now to get ready to go anywhere. Hell, I have even started experimenting with hotrollers and a blowdryer! This year, i have started learning how to love myself again. That I do matter. I am learning how to deal with issues without falling back on food and hiding in fat. This is one of the hardest lessons/things of this past year. For me, not having to deal with people ( in person) was my comfort zone and i used food to help me stay there. As long as i was the fat funny friend.. that was all any one expected. I was the wall flower that really didnt want to bloom. Now, I am trying to be a brighter spot in my garden this year I learned that a good bra and panty set and make you feel powerful! lol Lastly, I have learned that I am the only person who cam make myself a victim. People can only hurt me with words if I allow it. I have decided that I want to be a survivor. Not just a wls survivor and success.. but a lite survivor and success. I want my children to grow up and see that even though life throws in some bumps.. you dont have to fall over them and stay down. This year is a year that I will never forget.

How wonderful. Congratulations! I hope I am anywhere near where you are at, when my year comes up next April.