been MIA but back.. again

well, ya'll.. I am soo sorry for being MIA for so long. It just seemed like life gets in the way of what I want more than ever now. I do have a little update 1) I was refered finally by my pcp for a TT. Well, he sent me to a local plastic surgeon who accepts no insurance whatsoever. That was 75 bucks down the tubes.. kinda. The PS did say that my TT would be deemed as medically necessary and he would write a statement to that effect for my insurance comapny when I found another surgeon. My TT will end up being extensive. They are basically going to have to go all the way around from one side of my spine to the other to get most of the skin. thats going to hurt. So, I am at square 1 1/2. 2) here is a good one. I had to go get some summer tops because there are just some palces you cant wear a teeshirt to. I saw a cute summer dress and figured what the hay.. i'll try it on. My husband handed me a dress over the dressing room door, since I was already in the room trying on some shirts. It fit so nice and I really thought I looked good in it. That is a plus right there because I have been having problems still seeing myself as 368 pounds. I came out.. showed him how I looked in the dress and 2 women there ( who didnt work for the store) jumped in and said how good it looked on me and stuff like that. I have never had that happen before. I decided that I would get the dress. I went back in the room and took the dress off and saw the size. It is a 10!!!! OMGS!! I have never worn a 10 before! I about fell out in the floor. I am on cloud 9! I cannot believe that I have come this far. 3) as if that wasnt enough.. I finally weighed this morning. I weighed 152.. but when i moved the scale to the other side of the bathroom I weighed 149. I am going with 149 and will always weigh on that side of the bathroom now. This is soo great. I never thought that I could feel this good about myself.

Hi Beth! I'm a lurker, but I wanted to take a moment to just congratulate you on how far you've come! It's an awesome feeling to have the things happen like you mention above. I still feel like someone is going to come tell me to go shop in the plus size section of the store!! I hope everything works out with plastics and reconstruction. I will look for more updates! Heather