Its been a while!

Hello WLS buds!  I haven't been on here in a while.  I'm back!  I miss the support and SUPPORT is what I'm needing right now!  I have so much going on that its CRAZY!  As do most of you I'm sure!

I am not maintaining well.  I was until I hurt my hip about 3 months ago!  I quit exercising and have been eating anything and everything I want.  NOW my hip is healed and I'm still not exercising and still eating!  I'm up about 10 lbs!  I haven't wanted to admit it because that means I've failed again!  But I have to admit it because I am not too far gone to do something about it. 

I just don't understand how I can go through all I've been through...First, by living my entire life as a Heavy unhealthy person.  Then with the blessing of my WLS on Dec 16, 2008 and in Sept of 2009 Full TT, Arm Lift, Breast implants, and Lift only to regain my weight!  Something in my head is saying I'm gonna fail, something is just not working for me and I have to find out what it is so I can get back on track.  I keep telling myself to get back to the basics, thats what I would tell any of you...But when I try I just DONT DO IT!  Why am I setting myself up to fail?????  Its like I just don't care what I put in my mouth and thats what got me to where I was in the first place!!!!

I know part of my problem is that with my weight loss and total body transformation my husband is having a really hard time.  He is really insecure and scared I'm going to leave him. (we have an awesome marriege and I have no thoughts of ever being without him!)  I know this is his problem but this is someone I love more then life itself!  I know he loves my new look and loves me being healthy.  But he is so insecure that sometimes I think it was easier before I lost my weight.  Thats crap!  I know, but thats just some of the crap running through my head! 

I'm sorry I haven't been on in a while, but I just hope I can get some good advice from some wonderful people and support is really needed! 

Thanks so much!
Hugs,
Kim J!

 

 

Hang in there!  I have decided that this battle is for the rest of my life and that's okay.  You know how to lose it...you did it before.  You are right, 10 lbs is not that far gone.  Really, I mean before would have you have thought yourself a failure to lose everything and then battle with 10 lbs?  Sounds like a normal person to me.  Lots of thin normal people I work with battle with 10 lbs on and off again.  The key is to KEEP BATTLING!  Don't give in becuase then it turns into 20 and so on. 

You were crazy about exercise before so try and work that back into your schedule.  You can do it!  Find what works for you.  Just don't give up and don't label yourself a failure just because you didn't fit the perfect mold.  None of us do you know! ;)

Thanks Amy!
Thats exactly what I would have said to you!  LOL!  I needed to come back for the support!  Sometimes just writing/typing it out helps!  It is a battle every day!  And I did 20 mins on the elliptical and a 40 min walk to the lake last night!  So I am taking a step...steps..LOL! Back to the right path!
Thanks for your input and your support!
Hugs
Kim

 Welcome back Kim..

We all need support, even when we think we got it under control, but especially when we know we don't!

Thanks Kim!
You are doing great yourself!!!
I'm really happy you got your plastics!  Don't you just love it????  I Love my results!

Yes I surely do love them! and my Surgeon!

I KNOW I SHOULDNT BUT I WEIGH MYSELF EVERY MORNING AND I KNOW THAT MY WEIGHT WILL GO UP AND DOWN A COUPLE OF POUNDS EVERY DAY BUT I STILL GET UPSET ABOUT IT. MY HUSBAND TRIES TO TALK ME DOWN BUT I STILL FRET ABOUT GAINING IT BACK. I EVEN TELL MYSELF THAT A "NORMAL" PERSON'S WEIGHT DOES THAT BUT IM STILL THINKING LIKE A FAT GIRL. HANG IN THERE AND GET BACK ON TRACK AND YOU WILL DO GOOD AGAIN. IM NOT GONNA TELL YOU NOT TO WORRY ABOUT 10LBS CAUSE 1-2LBS IS FREAKING MY OUT.