life has gone to...
This is a post that is a part of me that I am not wanting to share but I feel that I need to...
For years I have suffered from a complusion to do for everyone to the point of exhaustion..and then find energy to do more. I reach out and help everyone that asks and never think of what that might mean to me.
Two weeks ago my sister called telling me she needed to have surgery and that she her daughters couldnt be there to help her. I instantly told her I would be there...never once thinking what that would mean for me.
A 16 to 18 hr car ride...putting up with her husband who I dislike more than I dislike hateful people.
Havng her dog jump on me..etc.
I went to bed ...and woke up mad>>>> mad cause I went through 13 surgeries alone..she never offered to come and help me...mad that again I jumped without thinking. I knew that something was wrong with me...
So i went and saw my doctor who suggested I see a psychtrist..And praise GOD I did..The next day I was blessed to see a man who specializes in what I have OCD...Never thought or dreamed OCD would be a need to do for others...
funny thing is..I have so many OCD tendenices that I now i check myself to see what it is I am doing.
It has been the best two weeks I have had in a long time. I am learning NOT to offer help all the time..its been hard but I am doing it...I do "homework" that is suppose to make me more aware of OCD and how to stop the thinking process.
I realized that since I was 6 I have suffered from this...and that most OCD people start at or around that age...
For years I have suffered from a complusion to do for everyone to the point of exhaustion..and then find energy to do more. I reach out and help everyone that asks and never think of what that might mean to me.
Two weeks ago my sister called telling me she needed to have surgery and that she her daughters couldnt be there to help her. I instantly told her I would be there...never once thinking what that would mean for me.
A 16 to 18 hr car ride...putting up with her husband who I dislike more than I dislike hateful people.
Havng her dog jump on me..etc.
I went to bed ...and woke up mad>>>> mad cause I went through 13 surgeries alone..she never offered to come and help me...mad that again I jumped without thinking. I knew that something was wrong with me...
So i went and saw my doctor who suggested I see a psychtrist..And praise GOD I did..The next day I was blessed to see a man who specializes in what I have OCD...Never thought or dreamed OCD would be a need to do for others...
funny thing is..I have so many OCD tendenices that I now i check myself to see what it is I am doing.
It has been the best two weeks I have had in a long time. I am learning NOT to offer help all the time..its been hard but I am doing it...I do "homework" that is suppose to make me more aware of OCD and how to stop the thinking process.
I realized that since I was 6 I have suffered from this...and that most OCD people start at or around that age...
being healthy has its rewards....take the challenge and just do it
I'm soo glad that you are taking charge of YOUR life sweety!! Good for you! How wonderful to have a name and understand the behavior and know that you can help yourself! Bravo!!
I hope that in future when you do decide to help others that you have taken care of yourself first!!
*big supportive hugs*
I hope that in future when you do decide to help others that you have taken care of yourself first!!
*big supportive hugs*
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You have to expect things of yourself before you can do them. ~Michael Jordan
My Goals:
1) 200lbs ACCOMPLISHED
3) 170lbs
4) Run 5K
"Unneeded food is not any less wasted in a body that doesnt need it, than it is in the trash." ~Brandilynn
"Those that will not be governed by God will be ruled by tyrants." ~William Penn
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You have to expect things of yourself before you can do them. ~Michael Jordan
My Goals:
1) 200lbs ACCOMPLISHED
3) 170lbs
4) Run 5K
"Unneeded food is not any less wasted in a body that doesnt need it, than it is in the trash." ~Brandilynn
"Those that will not be governed by God will be ruled by tyrants." ~William Penn
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It's good to hear from you. I had been concerned since you hadn't posted here. Working through those head issues is kind of liberating, sort of like more weight removed from you. Good for you!
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Heaviest Weight 250; Consult Weight 232; Surgery Weight 211
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Heaviest Weight 250; Consult Weight 232; Surgery Weight 211
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Are you maintaining? Join us at http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/VSGM/discussion/
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