disappointment doesnt even begin to describe it

So today I went to for 10 day diet and preop class. I was supposed to start my 10 day diet tomorrow, because my surgery is the Monday after Christmas. So while I am in the class, one of the girls from OWLO comes in and says I need to go see Tammy at Dr. Keiths office. I figured I forgot to sign some paper or something. I get over there and she takes me back and sits me down and tells me my blood tests came back and my thyroid is abnormal, and that they cant do the surgery until it is in the normal range! I ask how long does that take and she said anywhere from 2 weeks to 30 days! She said that I need to go see my PCP today if possible! I was floored! It was all I could do to keep from crying in front of her. So I go out to my car and cry for a little while and then I call my PCP. He cant get me in until the 30th. So now, i dont know when ill get my surgery and I am so tired and stressed from jumping thru hoops and trying to rearrange my schedule to accomodate my customers! Just when I thought everything was all set and I had it all worked out then...BOOM! It all fell apart. I am so so so very disappointed and angry. I know its for my own good. That my thyroid needs to be under control,I really do get that. I am just so tired.I dont think people realize how hard all of this is, mentally and emotionally. I know my customers sure as hell dont!  I just want to sit and cry. Now I dont know what to do. I mean whats the point of going to a prop appointment if theres not gonna be a surgery? What will my insurance do if I have to put it off until after the new year? I think im gonna go cry for a little while. sorry about the rant.

It sounds like you have a reason to rant and cry.  The dissappointment is huge but as you said...it's for your own safety and well being.  Maybe your PCP's office can call you if they have a cancellation?  You were already geared up for surgery, had your plans made and schedules arranged and now this...I totally see why you're upset.  Just dig in and go ahead and do what you need to do...this too shall pass.  You're probably only talking about a few weeks and in the big picture that's not much for your safety!!  Take care and good luck!

AwwwMary I'm so sorry!  I know how disapointed you must be.  I would NOT let them tell me they can't get me in.  I would go and asked to be worked in.  First thing in the morning.  Explain to them whats going on and how important this is.  HOpefully they will get you in.

Cry and Rant...I'm so sorry!  Everyone on here understands I promise!
Call me if you need to!  I'm here! 

Hugs Mary and while its disappointing you do what everything to be in the best possible form for the surgery one of teh things OWLO is very cautious about they want you to succeed in this adventure. Keep us posted.

Oh man. I know this is really emotional but I keep thinking to myself...It took a while to put this weight on and if I get delayed another week or month so be it. I will make it happen and be successful at it. Just hang in there.

(((Hugs))), Mary.
I can imagine how disappointed you are. Have a good cry, and then consider this. This is not a "no" to surgery. It's just a "not yet."
I believe there is a reason for everything, because God knows everything and He is in control. What if, since He even knows the future, He "saw" something about your surgery (as scheduled), but He didn't want you to go through that? Perhaps He ordered a divine delay, out of love for you, so that surgical cir****tances would be the very best for you. Just something to think about.
You are in my prayers. Try to go forward with joy. If your insurance approved you, the different surgery date should be fine. When it's scheduled, have them call your insurance company. Or, you call now, explain what happened, and ask. I think I would do the latter, just for peace of mind.
Blessings,
Mary

I am really sorry for the delay.  Just remember this is a delay.  I had the same thyroid problem and had my surgery two weeks after taking medication daily.  Go to your pcp with copies of your blood work that was already done and ask for help now.  Explain your situation and maybe they can help you now.  I well remember the ups and downs I had at this time in your journey and things will get better.  I wish you the best of luck and hope that you get to experience all the great things to come

Vent all you want!  I remember having my roadblocks and venting on here.  I was supposed to have my surgery in March but then had to have knee surgery instead and then after that they thought I had a blockage and had to have a heart cath so my surgery didn't have until July.  It devestated me at the time but now it seems like such a distant memory.  Hang in there.  Your surgery will happen.

 HI, Mary, 
It's really hard but hang in there.  Like someone said, it's not no to surgery just not yet.  The nurses at Norman Regional are great and very responsive.  When you have your surgery, maybe I can come visit you.

donna

Thank you to everyone *****sponded. I did get in to see my PCP on the 18th. He has a walk  in clinic in the mornings. I had to be there at 6:30 am, but by golly I got in! He read my lab results and told me he was going to put me on some thyroid medicine and that he wanted me back in 6 to 8 weeks to be retested. So I split the difference and set up the lab for 7 weeks.lol. He said it would take at least 4 weeks for it to work and because the numbers were so off it would probably be longer. I am now resigned to the fact that I wont be having surgery anytime soon. I know that this doesnt mean never but certainly not before the end of the year like I wanted. In a way I am kind of relieved, because now I dont have to think about it for at least 7 weeks. Its surprises me how much of the last few months has been spent thinking and planning and arranging my schedule to accomadate this surgery. So at least now I get a mental break for a little while. I will still continue to do basically my preop diet, with the exception of Christmas. I can tell youright now, I plan on pigging out! LOL 
Now I have to explain to all the people that I told that i was having surgery that it been postponed. I hate this part. I told my mother and she said " well maybe if your thyroid gets back to normal you can lose the weight without the surgery." I told her I wasnt going to hold my breath. Because like most of you, I have lost all the weight before only to put it all right back on. But who knows....God has been known to do miracles before. So I guess we will see whats going on in 7 weeks. I am not giving up, I am still moving ahead, I am just going to do what I can until that time. I am still going to eat right and exercise.
Anyway, thank you all for being so kind and supportive. You all are the best! ~~~Mary~~~