My One Year Surgiversary.
Today is my one year Surgiversary. It has been a year of changes and I am still trying hard to catch up in many ways mentally and even emotionally. But oh its been SOOOOO worth it all. And yes as cliche as it sounds it saved my life and I can't think of ever going back to the person I was last year. I have not weighed in a few weeks now as I know I have been doing some emtional NO NO snacking and wonder if I am trying to sabotage myself this close to goal. But anyway we will find out exactly where I am compared to the same scales I used for my starting weight. My one year check up is Thursday.
I had a big birthday bash at a friends bar last weekend and there was some pics taken in a group of my freinds And I cried when looking at them. I BLENDED IN... I was no longer the HUGE FAT girl who took up half teh picture. I blended in with the group. Someone who hasnt been there wouldn't understand getting so upset that you dont stand out in a picture but I know you all will understand. That was my biggest wow here lately seeing that I was normal sized now. I actually was told tonight it was time to stop losing, that I looked great where I am. Hard to believe they are saying that to a 200 pound woman but i know its truth. For I am happy at the size I am well except for wanting a TT and Breast reconstruction very BADLY!
I had a big birthday bash at a friends bar last weekend and there was some pics taken in a group of my freinds And I cried when looking at them. I BLENDED IN... I was no longer the HUGE FAT girl who took up half teh picture. I blended in with the group. Someone who hasnt been there wouldn't understand getting so upset that you dont stand out in a picture but I know you all will understand. That was my biggest wow here lately seeing that I was normal sized now. I actually was told tonight it was time to stop losing, that I looked great where I am. Hard to believe they are saying that to a 200 pound woman but i know its truth. For I am happy at the size I am well except for wanting a TT and Breast reconstruction very BADLY!
I know it seems like this past year had flown by I think its because there have been so many changes from the weight loss to the move out of the city as well as a few new ones that are happening now. I know I am bouncing but the scales said 202 3 times that day so I am taking it even if I have gained a couple back. I just need to get back to basics I threw the last of teh halloween cany away today so no more temptation. I also upped my protien adding an extra 26grs to the 80 I already get to try and get back on track. My ultimate dream would be to see Onederland but if this is where I am meant to stop I am cool with that. Like you said 200+ pounds in a year is amazing no matter who you are or what your final goal is.
I remember being here right before my surgery and devouring the sucess stories wanting to be one so bad I could taste it yet scared I would be one of teh ones for whom it didnt work. So I understand where you are coming from. I hope my sucess can be as soothing to you as so many of the ladies on heres stories soothed me before surgery and yes even after when I dumped the first time. (Hint canned pears contain ALOT of natural sugar) When I started freaking on the hair loss, or hit my first readjustment period. We will be here whenever you need a boost or just someone to listen to you complain. Hugs and best of luck!
Wow. You are truly an inspiration. I know what you mean about the pictures. I had the same thing happen last weekend. Even though I want to lose another 40 or 50 pounds, I didn't stick out. I looked "normal" in the photos. Awesome feeling, isn't it? Good luck on Thursday, but it doesn't sound like you need it.
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