It is the balance!

I am trying so hard to do everything right!! 
It feels like everyday I am a little of balance.  I try to everyday drink my water, eat only the amounts I should, eat only the things I should, take my viatamins and exercise.  Everyday it seems like I am just a little off somewhere.  I do not know if I am just missing the mark or a little off balance.  Somedays I struggle with my water, going to bed and knowing I haven't quite got there, I have made my self sck before because I ate to much, to fast or even the wrong thing. 

My loss has been really good this far.  70 pounds off such my surgery which was June 10 and 116 total loss with my presurgery loss.  I think WOW!  But, then I think what if I could have done everything perfect for the whole week? 

I have went to measuring my food again, since I can not "hear" my body say it is full.  I just feel like I have more control that way.  Any suggestions, or am I just going to always feel a little like I am a little off balance?  I feel like I am racing the weight loss clock.  I have only 9 mo. to lose easily!   I am not really a stressed out person.  Just sometimes a little hard on myself!  I do not want to screw this up.

First of all, you are not alone...  secondly you're not crazy....  and lastly, you will continue to think you're doing the devil's bidding when you slip in your eating habits and excercise.  Take it from someone who is obsessive about the way he chooses to do things.

I would give you the greatest advice that seems to work for everyone regardless of their size....fall in love with the most hated object in your gym....the TREADMILL....  yes, yes...the excuses will come to you....my knees are bad, I can't take the impact, my ankles can't take it..blah,blah, blah...  but let's look at that for just a second...  sure you may not have the greatest of joints but you're lighter than you were for a long time, those joints are strong from carrying around a lot of weight...AND you will be a day older tomorrow, so there's no way to win the fight of age....so start by walking...calculate the amounts you want BUT make certain to set clear goals when you will start jogging and eventually running.  Don't go around those goals, you only cheat yourself.

When I first started, I could barely do much on the treadmill either...now I train for specialized running events on islands with huge hills...(we don't have straight roads here either)....  so every other morning, I run 6 miles, then I'm so jazzed that I still workout afterwards to keep the blood movin' and groovin'....  did I have some goals when I started this?  Ya....i wanted the body of a greek adonis....  do I have it?  not yet...I'm so close I can taste the results...  speaking of taste...  i eat badly...  I do...  I eat pasta (rarely), tidbits of chocolate (once in a while), and I drink rum....  so I'm not the best person to tell you to eat properly sinc I lost nearly all of my weight from serious low carbing then I worked out to tune the human machine.

But you're not alone when you're hungry or when you're not able to feel full....it has been my experience we are all a bit unsatiable....learn to balance your hunger however...don't torture yourself, eat a tiny amount of whatever you want to eat, but pay for it in the gym....don't get a bad attitude about paying for it...learn to push through excuses and reward yourself with results...  my reward?  Abs...and those little lines on muscles that go from my hips to my abline....  I've always wanted them....now they're mine...  tell your hubby you've got a new lover, his name is the treadmill....  To repeat an important point from above, "tomorrow you are a day older".....you'll never have a better opportunity to serve the youth in your life than today... be proud ofthe life God chose to give you and show Him how much it means to truly live it.....

T.

Thanks for the great advice!  Tomorrow I will be a day younger, At least now, I can say they are better than they used to be.  I know I can be a little obsessive sometimes--I like to vent too!!
Thanks again :)

The only thing that I can add that my HERO didnt add was this...
you are not in a race to see who has lost the most weight nor is there a time frame that says you must lose this amountby then or the tool will be taken away and all the weight you have lost comes back on.
But what you are in  for is a healthier you.
If you think that you are not doing somethig just write..use a food journal  if you need one I got one you can have.
Attend support group meetings for POST OPS..that talk for real.
You are not off balance ..more like you are balanced and it is scary.
I am 23 months post op..I do eat the forbidden foods...Not pasta but I will eat a candy bar and then walk an extra mile for it..For me its a trade off I eat that and I exercise more for it. I drink diet mountain dew and I drink extra water for it.
So please dont think you are doing something wrong....as long as you are losing weight and feeling better thats all that matters