getting nervous, need support!!

Hey guys and gals,
A few days ago I posted that I was 1 week away... now I am less than 5 days away and my stomach is in knots!!! I am not concerned so much about the surgery itself, but the life afterwards. Will I really be able to turn away from food. Will I be able to put the fork down? What if I drink too much and undo the surgeons work? What if I don't recognize the full signal and put that one bite of food to many in my teeny tiny tummy?

YES, I AM ready for this, but I am just starting to realize this is ACTUALLY going to happen! My life will change. I think I am mainly afraid of the unknown. I still have the looming questions in my head... Will this work? Will I fail?

Today, my heart was pretty heavy in addition to stressing about the weeks to come. I actually found myself hiding in the ladies bathroom at work scarfing down a breakfast burrito. Then I felt guilty about that one, so I had another one. I know all is not lost, and have gone back to my pre-op supplements for the rest of the day. I got more than enough protein in with the eggs and turkey sausage.

That is VERY tough to admit, but it happened. That is what I am afraid of in the future, only i will be in very big trouble and not just emotionally.

Please help me out. let me know it will be okay and it is worth it. Of course I know it is and I am making the right decision, but i am really scared...... which I also realize is normal.

Thanks for your help!
Angie

Hello!  I kind of know how you feel because I am about two weeks away from my surgery date.  From reading your post  all I could think of to tell you is take some deep breaths and take it one day at a time or even one at a time.

I wish you the best and will say a prayer for you.

 

Keep me posted!

What you are feeling is perfectly normal. We all wondered if we were making a poor choice for our health.  I have never spoken to anyone that went through a weight loss practice that had follow up care that regretted their decision.  We all wondered if we could follow the guidelines for a lifetime.

I will tell you that the first 6-9 months it is about 90% the surgery working for you.  After that it is more about you working the surgery.  Make full use of the honeymoon period for maximum weight loss.  Get those good habits fully ingrained in your lifestyle.  You WILL lose weight.  Will you eat perfectly everyday for the rest of your life?  No you won't.  But, if you have learned how to eat healthier then the screw ups will not take you completely off program.  It is S much easier to get back on the wagon now than it ever was pre-op.

I have maintained my weight for about 9 months.  I never maintained for 9  minutes let alone months!  This is the best choice I have ever made in my life.  You will do well!  Don't let normal pre-op nerves get in the way of a great medical decision!  Go for it!  You will be so happy you did long term.

You did the right thing by posting here and admitting your slip. In 5 days you will have a tool that will help you from making such slips. You may still eat the wrong things from time to time, but listen to your body's signals and it will be a couple of bites and not a couple of burritos next time. It make take a bit once you first start back on food, but take it slow and you will your body's signals for when you have eaten too much or too fast.
For me, coming here and to support group is what has helped me be successful. I look at all those before me that have been successful and I won't let myself be one who is not.
I have been lucky in that for the most part I have not wanted the bad carbs. If I do, one or two small bites is usually enough. And when I get that slight urge I just remind myself how much better I feel and how much more I am enjoying life -- that is so much better than any carb tastes!
I also blog and that has been a BIG help. I will never disappoint those who have so faithfully followed my journey and cheered me on along the way.

Thank you all so much! It helps knowing that I am not alone in this. It also is great inspiration to see everyone's succes and continued success! I know I can do this and I will do this. What you all makes a lot of sense and you're right. I won't be perfect all the time, but I won't fall so hard now either.

I just got back from my 2 mile walk and that makes me feel better too. I have a great friend (the pastor's wife) that walks with me frequently. We have a nice chat and gets my mind off of things. God bless you all!

Love,
Angie

Hey Angie,
You are going through the same thoughts we all have.  The other posters have said it well.  I had a piece of chocolate cake the week before my surgery.  It was very intentional.  I bought one piece.  I got home with it, and jumped on it, so hungry for something rich.  I was shocked when it didn't taste very good.  I threw most of it away.  Wierd.

Post-op life is a huge new adjustment but you will be able to do it.  Learning the timing of things was my most difficult part.  You get home and think okay now I have to get in 64 oz. of water and 100 gm. of protein.  Then reality sets in when you can only consume a portion of that rquirement.  I guess I didn't pick up on that reading the posts here.  You build on it.  Your tummy will tell you, and yes, you'll make a few mistakes. 

Blessings to you now and everyday going forward.

Like everyone else before me said, all of us went through exactly what you are now. I really felt that way while going through the full liquid diet before surgery because I wanted food so bad!  As far as your fears about will you turn away from food and will you be able to put the fork down...trust me you will be able to. The first time you don't will be such an unpleasant experience that you will go to great lengths to avoid that ever happening again...I found this out the hard way. That's the great thing about this surgery, it keeps you honest and there is no room (especially in the beginning) to cheat.  Most of us have this same type of attachment to food that you do. That's why this is such a great tool, after surgery eating that donut just isn't an option.

Good luck, I am totally confident that you will do great. You are already taking the right steps by reaching out for support here. Let us know how your surgery goes!