2 weeks

I have made some really bad food choices over the last few weeks. Not so much in my dinner, but with snacking. I have found that I tolerate chips. YIKES. I am scared of going back to my old ways. I need to say NO.
I have got to get back on track. I have been at 228 for 3 weeks now and I know it is because of what I have been eating. I want to reach my goal weight so badly. I am so close, but it feels impossible at this moment. I know I will never weigh 314 again, but I am afraid I will not drop the rest of this weight. It has really been bothering me.
Emily

Oh, Emily, I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. Does it help to know that most of us deal with the same thing--the snacking, the fear? Perhaps you can take some time to dig deep in your heart and mind, to see what's going on. I know for me, there are many emotional reasons why I tend to go for food when I'm not really hungry.
Counseling is wonderful. Having an accountability partner is really good, too. Choose someone you can be "real" with, someone who will support but not coddle you. You know?
Also, there are some great books out there, that may help to guide you. I like Life Is Hard, Food Is Easy and The Beck Diet Solution (especially the workbook). You should be able to find them at www.half.com for a great used price. :)
Hope this helps. Just know that I understand and that I'm praying that you'll be able to get a handle on this. You will NOT gain your weight back. You WILL lose the rest of your weight.
Blessings,
Mary

thank you Mary. I know must of us deal with it. I just feel really alone right now. Of course no one in my house understands. I have a good friend that does, but she isn't always available to talk things over with. I honestly snack out of boredom. I know it sounds ridiciulous, but I do. I also feel alone when my family is munching on chips and dip and I "can't ". I know I need to get rid of that mind set, but it is hard to do. I appreciate your kind words and prayers very much.
Emily

Be strong.  Don't think you are better than your cravings, KNOW you are better.  Face it.  Confront it.  Tell your addictions and cravings they have no power over you then walk past on your journey to health.  It's hard and we all falter but we can and WILL do this!

Thanks Jay. I am going to give it my best from here on out.
EMily

Em,
I am right there with you on ethe not eating right and needing to get back on track. Tell you what I;ll kick you into line if you will kick me....

Sounds good Sarah. Here is your swift KICK.
Emily

Ahhhh, someone needs to kick me too  (bending over).

The sequence of events-being sick-getting better-needing to gain a little-feeling a sense of entitlement......which I have to confess, was wonderful.  I never felt that it was OK to eat a little more before, and for about a week it was.

The best thing you can do is purge your house of anything that is causing you trouble (and I mean tra**** not eat it). 

Emily, I am right there with you!  I am home all day with kids.  Mostly 2 year olds.  When I get stressed or upset or board my kitchen is right there!  I find myself eating even when I'm not hungry.  I have failed at every diet I have ever been on, I have lost weight only to regain it plus+++extra lbs!  I was waking up everyday and expecting my clothes to be too tight and the scale to say 245 again!  I know this is self defeating.  I got ahold of the psyc I had to see before WLS and I had a visit with her.  She just talked to me and gave me some food ideas.  I felt really good after I left her.  I'm going to try to make another apt with her soon. 

I will go to a meeting with you when ever you want.  Dr. Gorospe has meetings in Owasso.  I can't remember when they are but I can find out.  You always have support here.  I don't know what I would do without OH.  I tell everyone who I know is thinking about WLS to camp out on OH for research and support!

I'm here!!!!
Hugs
Kim J! 

ok i dont know if this will help anybody else with chips but i freak myself out so i dont eat them by thinking they will poke my pouch and i dont want to poke my pouch and bleed from maybe mis-chewing a chip!!

haha im crazy but it works!