Explanation of my Absence

I need to explain why I have been so MIA as of late just not in a real good mood. Still sick and sick of being sick, no where to turn and I can not put a smile on my face anymore. I at  the breaking point no really I am past the breaking point. I had the GB out and just about the same place I was before. I can drink a little easier now but I do believe it is from will power not wanting to be in the hospital again. I am sorry for being so distant but with my Fed up attitude right now I would only scare or upset people.  I tried support group and it took all I  had not to cry and hit people in the nose b/c all of these great weight lose stories with no problem. So I will be reading not really posting a lot well not until my attitude changes. Just saying hi and bye all at the same time.


Stephanie

Stephanie,

I am so sorry that things have been so rough for you and it must hurt to see all the positive storeis from others. We all know you have been though hell with this but know that no matter the mood we love and miss you more than I can say.

I'm glad to hear from you Stephanie.  I had missed you.  I'm so sorry that you are still having major problems.  I know it has to be very frustrating.  I have no answers for you but please stay in touch with your docs and don't think they don't care.  That's why they make the big bucks.  Insist that if they don't have answers then send you somewhere to get another opinion and that your sick and tired of being sick and tired!  We do care and will be praying for you!!!  (((HUGS)))

Oh Stpehanie, I am so sorry to hear this.. But you have every right to be sick and tired of being sick and tired..  Get angry at the world and let it out.. But now you have to stick your chin up, and don't give up.  Demand answers from the doctors, get referrals, trust in the Lord that he will lead you to the right person to get you heeled.  We are praying for you and we can sympathize with what your saying.. Please know we do care about you and your health and we want to see you  better.  Let me know if there is anything you need or vent..  I am here for you sweetie..

Huge hugs,
Sheila

I am so sorry! Ok you can post your moods too and we will still be here for you. We don't scare easy. I have wondered where you were and the other Stephanie too. I find it so hard to believe that they can't get to the bottom of this. It has to be something that has caused this! I don't know you well, but we all know it has to be really bad to bring YOU down! Please, don't stay gone long as you are a very important part of this board! We love you and will be praying that God opens the minds of these Doc's to find the  problem! Don't give up!

Sherry

Stephanie,  Please dont stay away.  I really havent know you very well but I feel so sorry for you in all that you have gone thru.  We are here for you to vent and just be a shoulder for you to cry on.  I will be praying that things start to turn around for you very very very soon.

Hey girl

I know things are rough for you. I know you are frustrated, angry and near defeated. Remember we love you and we are here for you. If you need to vent, vent on the board. People on this board are adults and they can take some venting, besides there are other people out there suffering too. We want to support everyone but especially those that struggle. I am here for you if you need anything.

Hugs!

Jenn

Stephanie, as the guru of complictions I TOTALLY get what you mean! Its rough as hell to find support when you go to meetings and everyone there has a rosy picture and yours is nothing but gloom. But then thats why you got me here.
i thought when I had no problems getting my rny my journey would be smooth...OOPS I forgot to read that damn fine print that says...Complications do happen only to the few the ones that are strong and can handle it...weak ones do not get complications.
So here we are both dealing with life after RNY, and complications..watching others enjoying their new lives. THIS TOTALLY SUCKS!  What I decided to do when I was told November 22, 2007 that I would have emergency surgery will be in the or for 7 days...to find something to rejoice in...the first day it was the fact that I was in charge of my destiny..that I could frown and be pissed at the world or I could grab my antheislogist ass and make him smile..I could flirt. AND BY GOD I DID....each time I was rolled down the hall into pre op I would flirt, joke and make the nursing staff sing to me. When I would wake up I would get up and walk..thanking GOD I had that ability. Now its been 7 surgeries later and I still do the same thing. I praise GOD for my life and that he gave me this test to pass. Find joy in simple things for that is what will bring it faster to you. Look at the fact that if you were less of a person than you are you wouldnt be dealing with this crap as well as you are.
AND DANG NAB IT get on here and friggin post about your feelings. thats what we are here for...OPEN UP scream at us cry or just moan..IT HELPS...do like what I did tell folks that the rosy picture that SURGEONS want you to beleive DOES NOT ALWAYS EXIST. BLOG the hell out of this...be an adovcate that complications do happen and that when they do you can overcome them.

Okay sweetie I am off my soap box..the height is getting to me
HUGS, love and good wishes to you..just remember I am here for you always....

I'M SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT ALL YOUR TROUBLES THAT YOU ARE GOING THRU....PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP YET! WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU AND I WILL HELP YOU IN ANY WAY THAT I CAN....JUST ASK!