Its been a while
Hi everyone,
Its been a long time since I have posted or even opened this web site. I have really been down on myself and going through some tough times.
I have "fallen" off the wagon and been going nut's. I had my first fill on 2/3/9. At that time he put 4cc's in. I found out that I had a large band that holds up to 14cc's that day. So basically I have no restriction. For me a "compulsive over eater" that was like finding out I still could eat anything and everything. So guess what? I have.
We just came back from our vacation and I let everything go during that time. I have had anything and everything I wanted.
Well I go back for my second fill on Tuesday. At that time he said he would put 4 more in. I'm glad but I'm scared. I have lost all of my hard work and now I will have to start over. Not to mention the chewing I will get when he sees that I have gain some of the weight back.
I feel so bad because I know there are people out there that would love to be in my position and yet I just have taken full advantage of it. In a bad way.
I now realize I need more "support". I need to surround myself with others like me. I also found out that when you don't have an "outlet" for your emotions, this is what happens. I had food before and now I feel like I have lost my best friend.
I need to find a support group that I can join and attend. I know most of you have had surgery that has a support group of its own. Does anyone know of any that is open to the public? Also maybe it would help to have a weight buddy? I live in Moore and am open to meeting some new friends and hoping that will give me the added support I need.
Thanks for letting me vent and I hope to hear back from some of you interested.
Karen
I live in South OKC/Moore and would be more than happy to be a buddy to you. I will PM you my contact information. The support group meetings on Thursday evenings are open to anyone, no matter where you had your surgery. I don't go every Thursday but try to go at least once, if not twice a month. We also have a monthly meet and greet -- the next one is next Wednesday at Iron Star. We also just restarted a walking group at 9 AM on Saturdays at Earlywine Park.
on 3/21/09 1:02 pm
This is a good group here-it's my main support group (I was banded in Mexico) and I enjoy our monthly meetings. The nice thing about the Okie group is that we support all surgery choices and there isn't a lot of "my surgery is better than yours".
There is also a lap band forum that is helpful with bandster specific questions.
NOW-for your particular situation-I would say, from my experience, if any of us live more than 6 months past our surgery date, we are going to fall off the wagon at least once. The key is not staying off.
The band is a slow starting surgery, but it does work-I'm down over a 100 pounds, something like 116 or so, so I believe it works.
One of the things we all share, no matter what our surgery type, is that we were all over eaters. Anyone that says they were not really shouldn't have had surgery, because they aren't ready for it. What I didn't know, until AFTER the surgery, was how much I depended on food-I truly was in denial till I could no longer have the food. And that is where we can help you.
On the band board, if you post your story you'll get a thousand responses that say "there is no window of opportunity with the band-anytime you work it, it will work with you".... and then different people will tell you that they gained weight or whatever before they got good restriction. I'm not knocking the board, I'm just telling you that you are not so different from either other bandsters or other WLS patients.
I'm planning on going to the Iron Starr next week at our dinner, and I hope you'll join us.
Hang in there! It is so worth it in the end.
40 pounds lost pre-op
This is the ride of my life.....what an amazing tool I now have!!!
