rough day

All I can offer is a **HUG** as I have not been in your shoes yet!

It does get easier on a day to day basis, but at getting close to two years out, there are still some bad days and bad moments.  Initially, I had trouble eating WITH people, and now I find that I have more bad moments when I'm alone (bored).  But getting adequate fluids and protein will make the bad moments less frequent, and less bad-really, that is the honest truth.

No kick, just a great big hug. Keep your mind on the prize and I promise it gets a lot easier. Once you start clearing out the large clothes and buying smaller it gets even better -- at least it did for me.

 Many Hugs
 Emily I know it can be stressful and it's a challenge everyday that we go through. I have tested myself in many ways things I shouldn't have eated I did and I paid the consequences for it. Remeber soft foods are for a temporary moment. You will be back to your regular diet soon enough. You have the strength to get through this and I know you can focus as well. I think you need that reassurance just like any one of us that this all can be done. I have gone through some mixed feelings lately but I know this is for the better and I know I can make it through. Keep focused keep strong and know the OH family is here for you.

Emily,
I too had days that I cried and cried over nothing really, or so I thought but it really was a mourning time over the foods lost. I know it is so much more difficult for those of you who have families and do have to cook from time to time. I cook for my daughters off and on but at least it goes away to their homes.
This is definetly not an easy way out of anything. It is very hard. I know I made it through the liquid phase and I have gotten through the mushies, but now that I can eat what I know I can have...it is a learning process....I have to retrain myself on how to be creative for one person. 
I don't have any words that can change anything you are going through except to say it does get better...It really does and the best part is knowing that it will all be worth it in the long run.
What ever you do, get your liquids in and if you have to drink protein, then drink it until you can eat enough in your meals. I still can't eat much, so I do suppliment with a protein drink to help me get more protein in during the day. The nut says if you can't get the protein in...still make sure you drink water, so that is what I do....water,water, water!!
Hugs
Sherry

Yes I remember those days after surgery, it is hard to have everyone else around you eating normally for them.  About 2 days after my surgery my husband brought home 2 pizzas after work, and it upset me greatly I remember crying and crying about it, they smelled so good, I even felt he was being quite heartless.  I eventually got over it and the results of this surgery are so worth it.  We miss the old Friend (food) that gave us comfort and enjoyment.  Even 6 months out I get a little depressed when I can't eat what I want. But when I put my size 12 on i realize that giving up all that food was worth it.   Everything will be OK, later on when you see major results you will be so happy.     Take Care      Rosielocks  

Emily,
Something that helped me tremendously was getting some take out egg drop soup and straining it really well.  I  would heat it up and eat it out of a bowl just like regular soup while at the table with the family.  It had so much flavor that I felt like I was eating a regular meal.  Also, Campbells makes a double chicken noodle (in a box) soup that you can prepare.  Again, I strained out the noodles but ate it like regular soup.  Both of those things were taught to me by my sister who had the surgery before me and believe me, they really did help.  I felt almost normal again!
The process does get better as time goes on.  In a couple of months you will look back and know that it was all worthwhile!  You are doing great!
Camille

I have been there too! I know exactly how you feel.  But it gets easier.  For me it was easier once I could eat again.  Just to be able to eat something like everyone else was eating.  I eat, but I have to remember my limits too.  Yesterday  I was really hungry and needed some protien and so I thought I'll just drink some milk.  I LOVE milk.  Well, not thinking I drank 2 cups of milk!  OMGsh I got so sick.  That nauseated feeling.  I couldn't throw up It was so bad it lasted for about 30 mins.  I was even crying because I felt so STUPID!  1 cup wouldn't have hurt me but 2 bad news!
Just hang in there and it will get better!  That ticker will be moving down and you will see your weight falling off and you'll feel like a million bucks!  I can promise you!!!
Hugs
Kim J.

Thanks kim, I had such an emotional day yesterday it was unreal. I spent most of the day crying and in bed. My dear husband spent most of it with me trying his hardest to comfort me. I appreciate all the support that I have gotten from all of you all. It has meant alot to me.
Emily

EMILY I WISH I COULD TELL YOU THAT IT GETS EASIER BUT I HAVE NOT FOUND THAT TO BE THE CASE YET. I AM HOPING THAT IT DOES GET BETTER AND EVERY TIME I GET TO MISSING FOOD I GO LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR AND A LIGHT GOES ON AND I SAY" OH YEAH..THATS WHY I CAN'T EAT THAT!" HANG IN THERE!