rough day

I am having a really rough day today. I know I am not getting in enough fluids or protein. I am also missing eating. Today I have just cried and cried. I sit down to dinner with my family and it is so hard. I eat my 2 ounces of soft food while they are enjoying a big meal. I knew this would eventually surface, but I was hoping I was beyond missing food.  I want to eat really eat. I guess I need to stop thinking about what I can't have and focus on what I can. Anyone wanna give me a swift kick............or a big hug?
emily

BIG HUG

I have days like that and yeah, they suck! But, it does get better. As everyone is fond of saying, they operated on our stomachs, not our brains. Changing how you look at food is really hard. There are days I miss all the things that I use to eat, and wish sometimes I still could. That might not change for me ever, but it does get less powerful. The stronger my body gets, the healthier I feel, the more things I can do today, I couldn't do 3 months ago (sit comfortably in a booth, walk 2.5 miles, be on my feet all day without knee pain) keep me focused and strong. The hardest break up in my life was my breakup with food. Hang in there Emily, we are all here for you and we all share the same struggle!

Jennifer

I am looking forward to when I fell better and things get easier. you inspire me with your words. Can't wait to be able to walk pain free.
emily

Ahhh Emily!  I think we all have those days.  I'm fortunate that I don't have to cook for anyone else, except when I go to my mother's, however I find myself eating a lot of frozen dinners now days just because I don't like to cook for just me, and no more than I can eat, it's just not worth it to me.  I guess that's not the right attitude to have, but I don't like spending my time in the kitchen to only eat two or three bites and be finished.  :)

You deserve a big hug!  You're doing great, and you'll feel better soon!  You already know that it's worth it, but sometimes those old feelings come back and get to us.

Hugs,
Marsha

I know just how you feel. I had my surgery Feb 25th so we are close to the same dates and phases. I am miserable when I have to sip fluids while my family is eating. I smell the smells and remember what it was like. I think about what I would have eaten if I knew how I would feel now. That doesn't help. I need the same support. I live with skinny people and they eat junk...right in front of me like I don't still crave those things...even though I can't and couldn't tolerate them now. I keep reading that it gets easier. I will pray for both of us.

I will be praying for you as well. My family has been very supportive in trying not to eat junk around me, but I have told them not to worry about it because I have got to get used to it too. It is just really hard. I haven't had to cook for them yet. my mom has done the cooking so far which is really nice of her to do.
emily

Girls - This is the "paying your dues" portion of your weight loss surgery.  You just have to push through it.  But I promise and pinkie swear that it does get so much easier!  You will eventually get to eat "real food" with your family.  You'll be able to eat more than just a couple of bites.  I promise you will both learn to embrace your "new normal" and you'll be happier and healthier because of it.

This is the tough part and you're both up for the challenge!  Tie a knot in the end of your rope and hold on because it does get better.  You are both so worth it!

We will all be thinking about you and sending good vibes your way.  Some day, you'll be encouraging the next batch of newbies as you sit around in your new, skinny clothes!  Big hugs to you both!

Thanks Marsha.
Emily

Emily;

It does get easier, and what you are feeling now is perfectly normal. Keep in mind that you are trying to end a toxic relationship with food and as with any relationship, it is easier said than done. Even as far out as I am, I still have to fight the urge to eat only because food is there and not because I am hungry. I know we all want to eat with our families, if anything because we need to prove to ourselves that things have not changed, but at the beginning of this journey, I did not eat with them - it was too hard and I sort of seemed to need time with my stomach and see how much I could eat, and sort of start developing a different relationship with food. I know it sounds weird, but it worked for me.

Anna, dinner has always been our family time so I don't want to lose that even though it is hard on me. I eat my 2 ounces and I eat it slow so I am getting to participate with the family. I just had a hard day today. My hubby made a sandwich and got the chips out and sat down to eat. Tracy made pizza rolls and said he made enough for me too. I had to remind him I couldn't eat them anymore and he looked kinda sad, but he knew. He said well you want a popsicle. So it was just one of those days.
I know it will get easier.
emily