Are you ready?

I posted this on three other sites and got some good responses so here goes it on here....

Before my WLS I thought I was ready for all the changes. Thought it was going to be easy to adjust to being thinner and healthier. All I could think of was being healthier and not having people stare at me.

Was I really ready for the changes? The answer is NO. I realized I would cry just cause the seat belt extender was no longer needed. I couldnt believe it when I tried on a pair of jeans classix cut and they fit. I was shocked when I walked the complete Boardwalk at the Beach...and never once looked for a bench.
Then mentally I could not grasp being thinner. Could not accept this fact till I had someone tell me what I have told alot of folks "LOOK at yourself in a full length MIRROR" Dont avoid taking pics ...ENJOY AND HUG onto the weight mmelting away.

I thought all my wows were gone did not think I could have another one...
Well my biggest wow was not my weight loss it had nothing to do with how I was feeling how I looked or anything of that nature.
My BIGGEST WOW was when I was told I inspired others that I have helped others when they needed it..that I was someones hero...those are my biggest wows.....

So folks   ARE YOU READY?

I think that deep inside, I am ready. I know that I have hidden behind these walls of fat for so long that I now wonder if I am ready to come out and face the world with a new role. Each of you on this board play such an important part in preparing we who are pre-op and those who are post-op for what lies ahead. You are the push we need to step out in faith to do this....Each of you on here do inspire others on here. So yes, now when you look into that mirror....each of you....Realize you really are  someone's hero!!

I truly thought I was ready..but believe me we are never truly ready for this journey...the first wow you will not beleive it...the first time you do something without thinking about it ..and not be winded...
I can say with all that I have gone through nothing ever prepared me

I know for me Pattye, you have inspired me in so many ways.  I wasn't ready for all the changes either.  I still can't wrap my head around the fact I've lost 167 pounds.  I actually can get in the car and drive after my daughter has been in it without killing myself.  I tie my own shoes.  Walk 2 or 3 miles at a time.  Go through 4 buildings at the Home and Garden Show non stop at the fairgrounds.  Attend ballgames and concerts at the Ford Center and fit in my seat wihtout spilling over into someone elses.  Walk up the bleachers without getting winded.  I can polish my own toenails and do my own pedicures now.  I can cross my legs!!!  I can shop for clothes in the "normal size" stores.  I can work in my yard and bend over without passing out.    I did look at myself in my full lenth Mirror the other day after you told me to and I do see the new me but I still don't grasp onto it.  Maybe I will sometimes.  I still feel sometimes like it's all a dream and I'm afraid I'm going to wake up and it ain't so!!! 

Sweetcakes it takes time for the eyes and the brain to connect. Just keeping looking and you will se what we all see...
Beleive me wake up cause its real sweetcakes

You should know that I love you for different reasons...none of them ever were beacsue of your weight.  I like the fact that you're always outspoken, fun, cool personality, and metally challenging. The fact of your weight has never been a topic with me, because I love the person you are without knowing your weight.  you have been my friend since the first time I let some of my dark humor fly....   that alone has inspired me to be a loyal friend always available to lsiten or to depend upon...

Cool people deserve other cool people.....  See I'm lucky I got you....

T.

T same back to ya.....
I was told long ago to keep postive people around me..cause the negatives one makes life negative...so heres  to ya MR. POSTIVE...muah

I thought I was but dang this ride is mind blowing. hee hee I saw my brother today for the first time since christmas and I loved the look on his face. That readjustment period I swear the scales may not have moved but dang those inches are. He laughed at me on myspace I had change dmy display to the shrinking mommahen which of course he had to comment on(he sense of humor all his own.). He has thought of the surgery but hasnt really committed yet. I think he is watching me to see how it goes and get an ideal of it as I hear that he oftens asks mom for information. I wish he would approach me more directly I would talk his ear off. I did post a link to Oh on my blog so maybe if it can hea done person this way I will have doen my good deed for the day. LOL

I have told you before that your positive outlook and keep after attitude helped me through the insurance deal and I know I can always count on you to be exactly what I need be it consoling friend or the one to kick my rear back in line I know you are there.

And just think I get paid in protein bars..lmao...
I do it cause its my way of paying it forward....
as a online chat buddy says to me you master  me grasshopper..so thats when I say jump hopper jump

When I first started this whole process, I was so ready for it.  But I have gone thru a grieving process that's been so frustrating.  When I first went to WW, I was asked if I was a sweets eater.  I said "no".  Then I was asked if I was an emotional eater.  Again I said "no".  But by golly, I am both of them and I just didn't realize it. 
I hate being fat.  I absolutely hate it.  Don't get me wrong, I'm realistic in this whole thing.  I know I will never look like a supermodel and I am wanting to loose weight only to be healthier and so I can be a Momma.  But being obese is all I've ever known.  Literally since infancy, I've been obese. 
So I can definitely say that I am conflicted, but I am ready to take that big step. (With 15 more lbs to go first!)

Jen