Here I go again

I'm back in the hospital again.  I've been running a low fever with a few of them just over 101 since Monday afternoon.  I went to the doctor yesterday and he ordered cultures this morning and the home health nurse called me this evening and said I tested positive for a bacterial infection and also that my blood is very low. She informed me that I had to go to the hospital.  It doesn't feel like a typical bacterial infection and I'm praying they don't remove my PICC line but we'll see.  I will be getting 3 uhits of blood sometime soon and they did more cultures to make sure the first cultures aren't false positives. 

Needless to say, I was distraught when I got the news.  I was just trying to get used to drinking again.  Could really use some prayers as my feelings are WAY out of control.  I am fighting the depression beast and I fear it may be winning.

Oh, Kim, I hate hearing this. Please fight this thing...and the depression. This is the work of the enemy, but as a believer, you have the Greater One within. Call upon His Name, and in His Name, rebuke the enemy. May the Lord give you His comfort and peace. I knew the Lord woke me up for a reason. I'm going to Him in prayer for you right now.
Blessings,
Mary

I hate to hear of this kind of thing hitting you after all of the other stuff you've had to endure.

You're stong enough to get over the feelings of depression though.... stick it out and find SOMETHING out there to stay inspired.  It's up to you to find a reason to smile at the absurdity of constant bad luck...

but just think....

you keep climbing the mountain and one day you're gonna hit the top and it will be a nice walk down since the path was so hard to follow.

I've got you in my thoughts...

T.

Kim, u are in deed in my prayers. I second what Mary said. God doesnt give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind.  Please do not give in to the enemy's tactics. Ur breakthrough is right around the corner. Love and Hugz to you and prayers goin out 

LaDetra 

Good Grief!  Hang in there.  My prayers are with you for a prompt recovery.

Oh Kim,  you have been through enough..  My heart just sank as I read this post.  Please God give her a break.. Please know you will be in our continued thoughts and prayers..  Praying for a full recovery..

God Bless,
Sheila

I'M SO SORRY FOR YOUR TROUBLES. I THOUGHT YOU WERE ON THE ROAD TO RECOVERY AND WERE FINALLY GOING TO GET TO ENJOY YOUR NEW TOOL. SAYING PRAYERS FOR YOU DAILY! GET BETTER!!

Kim,

I hope you are better soon!  Bless your heart.  My prayers are with you!  Keep your faith!

Hugs,
Marsha

Kim,
I'm so sorry to hear that you are in the hospital again.  I wish you didn't have to go through this.  You have to try to keep your spirits up.  I can only imagine how you must be battleing with depression.  You will get through this and be well again one day.  For some reason your body is just taking a little longer the the average body!

Keep us posted with what you find out!  You are in my prayers!
Hugs to you!
Kim

Well this morning is another day and I am feeling better.  I'm on my second unit of blood and that alone makes me feel better.  I was also able to get down a pretty good amount of chicken broth and I am working on my water... baby steps.  I know I will get through this too but yesterday was just too much.  I am going to whip this I know, but with my husband struggling with his back surgery, my never-ending issues with my surgery it does get to me.  We do know that God is in control, but we keep wondering when we will get a break.  I don't mean to complain because somehow God has managed to keep us afloat another month when we didn't know how we were going to do it.  I guess we are human.  You guys are so great and I love all of you for helping me through this tough time.