Sz 12
on 10/30/08 11:43 am
I've actually given this a lot of thought over the past few days. My goal weight is going to be 5 pound range, the 12's are comfie now, so I am calling this the upper end. I could lose 5 pounds and they would still look ok-and that is going to be the lower end.
Because of my previous issues with bulemia, it's important for me to pick something that is doable, liveable, etc and stay with it. I spent a few hours being tempted to go further, but for me, that is where the madness starts, so yes, I'm calling it good.
I didn't have any real problems losing the weight and there was never a desire to purge because I cannot binge. But I can tell that I do have thoughts of another 5 pounds, etc.....
It is also fairly common to drop a few pounds after you call it good, so I'm not going to freak out if I do, and I'm pretty much going to stick to my current eating range, which has worked well for me. I try to eat at least 1000 calories a day, and no more than 1500-that is something I can easily live with the rest of my life.
It feels surreal-I'm not a super model, but I'm a normal healthy size and I can buy all the clothes I want in this one size-no more buying on speculation. Just to be sure Old Navy didn't size large or something, I went and tried on some different clothes to veriify that yes, I'm this size.
That puts me at 91 pounds down, and the OCD part would like to see 9 more so I could say I lost a 100, but I'm thinking that that might just be more disordered thinking trying to pop up.
I'm so happy for you. What a wonderful accomplishment. I'm even more impressed with how you are recognizing how easy it is to get into that old mindset, and you're stopping before it can creep up again. I hadn't thought how beneficial WLS would be for someone suffering from bulimia, but it makes sense, of course. For what it's worth, I'm very proud of you.
Blessings,
Mary
ObesityHelp Support Group Leader and Support Group Coach
