Do you ever.....

Get so cranky and out of sorts you don't even feel comfortable in your own skin?  BAH-I am there.  I feel like just braying like a donkey-I'm sooooooo cranky.

Sort of makes me wonder how many times before surgery I felt like that, and didn't really notice, just ate something sweet and moved on.  Post WLS, it does take a little more brainwork to figure out what's going on-and one of the first insights you have to get (and I want to share) is that these feelings you get that you suddenly just don't know what to DO with.....well, those are feelings that you probably had before and just ate to silence.  

So, nothing has really changed except that you now notice the feelings-and can do something constructive about them.  Or you can bray like a donkey. 

 

Deb - you are so right on with this. I have been cranky for weeks and can't really figure out why! But you are right - a year ago, it would have been silenced with food!!

Hi, Debra.
I don't get cranky very often, but I sure can get blue. When that happens, I find myself edging my way to food. I'm doing much better in that regard, because I recognize that I'm trying to numb myself with food. For me, it's even a spiritual thing, this recognizing that I've used food to try to fix myself, rather than go to the Father. I'm learning to do that, instead.
There were times, before my memory returned (about my trauma), when I wanted to explode. My poor husband used to open the front door, after work, and peek in, to see if he could judge the mood I was in. It was overwhelming to me and no fun for him, I'm sure. We both survived it, though, and when my memory returned, as unbelievably hard it was to deal with, there was instant relief from panic attacks and that inner volcano. The mind is an amazing thing.
I thought I heard a donkey braying, a few hours ago. ;)  Bray away!
Blessings,
Mary

I know what you mean! I was a cranky old woman yesterday.  Seems like everyone was nutso yesterday at work- kids and adults alike.  And, chocolate was calling my name big time.  I guess some habits take much longer to break.  But, I did not go gorge on candy like I would have in the past.  I did have one trick or treat size bag of M&Ms and was happy. What a change.

Yep, I had a snickers for breakfast....LOL.   I've been wanting a snickers, but I just can't do that many calories unless I call it a meal-but the weird thing is, it did hold me till lunch and you know what, the world didn't end because I ate something unhealthy.

Since surgery, I seem to be able to eat a treat, not get upset about it, and not go into a 3 day binge.  I really wish I could understand why that is, and why I couldn't do it before-but I'm glad I can do it now.  (But I can only do it if I go buy one snickers-I can't bring a 6 pack home).

On a healthier note, Amy"s Organics has come out with some TV dinners that I think I'll be able to eat...I can eat the veggie loaf one now-but there are a couple more (shepherds pie) that aren't full of rice or noodles, so that is a bright spot on my eating horizon. 

Yes I do and for no apparent reason. Poor DH..he's the brunt of it a lot because I don't take it out on the kids at school.

It would be nice to know if you can blame it on the surgery or is it a "woman" thing??? 
Deb, Iwill say that caring for the elderly is a  huge stress situation and I can understand days of crankiness. I lived it and some days were overwhelming! You have alot of different situations that could cause it. I say...it is better to bray like a donkey than to act like one....I tend to act like one!!
Hang in there!

Sher

If you have a parrot you can bray all you want to under the guise of teaching the parrot something knew....LOL.  Today we are working on reggae "exclamations" since we neither one can follow the words we just groove to the beat and shout out "Ah OHHHH" every now and then-sounds pretty good though.  I wish I knew how to record sound-I could do a great Ollie remix of some reggae standards.  (I still think I'm a better dancer than Ollie though-he's got the head thing down but he doesn't use his arms much....)