About to loose it!

I am about to loose my mind, I just don't know how you all cope so well with all of this.  As some of you know I had to go get some fluids at the beginning of the week because of a problem I was having swallowing foods and liquids.  They gave me steroid's to help open and relax my throat and it worked for a little bit but I'm afraid that its happening again.  I don't like how the steroid's made me feel, they made me feel absolutely awful.  I am at the point were I'm hungry but if I try and eat its barely anything at all, like when I first started eating.  I just don't feel like I have any control over my body what so ever and because of that I feel like I made a big mistake doing this surgery.  I know a lot of this is stress but I don't know how to deal with it... I need some ideas.. I cant hardly stand to even look at was let along force 50 to 60 oz down every since day.  I need some ideas with the liquids if nothing else. I cant stand water, coffee, tea, little packets of flavor for water none of it.  I see it and all i want to do is literally start dry heaving..  Help me I am at a loss.  How long before  you all started feeling alive again instead of tired and wore out all the time.

Sorry to go off I know other people have it a lot worse that I do like my mom and I shouldn't complain but I just need some advice any advice to help me threw this BIG down fall.   

I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown and others who don't know don't understand and all they can say is IT WILL BE OK YOU'LL BE FINE.  If I hear that again I'm going to SCREAM!

I'm so sorry you are having a hard time.  Gemini One that posts on here is having a lot of the same problems.  You might try to post her.  At least she can totally relate at the moment.  I haven't been there, so I won't give any advice or tell you it will be fine!  I'll just send a HUG!
Kim

Are you still on steroids?   They really do a number on me-I totally believe in roid rage.   That, combined with the stress of your mom, your surgery and complications, etc.....I know this won't make you feel better, but I think the way you are feeling now is probably pretty appropriate even if it's not fun.

They only gave me steroids threw IV twice and I dont know how long it takes to get out of the system but I wi**** would hurry up I hate feeling this way, i dont want to regret a decision that i cant take back. 

Regret is such a waste of time anyway.  You're right, you can't take it back-spend your time and energy focusing on what you can do right now-what would make you comfortable, at least for a moment.  Try to get some quiet space in your mind before you work on the next steps.  It's easier once you get your head to shut up for a bit.

steroids can do lots of things to you....hormonal changes, unjustified anger, irrational thinking....It also gave me diabetes!
Honey, you are in a panic mode right now....probably a little fearful. I know you dont'want to hear  "ït will get better" so....It is going to get worse...It will tear you down....Ok now did you like that better?? NO  You want support, not gloom and doom! Call the nurse every freakin day! Call your patient advocate have her talk to the Dr. MAKE sure everything is ok...
You really do need to relax! You have been through so much wiht your mom and all your own problems...You have a right to be stressed out...but give yourself just a few min to be stressed out and then knock it off and get logical.  Water will help to dilute it out of your system but the residual effects are there for a few days....I'm telling you this...I would imagaine that in a few days you will wonder which one of your steroidal personalities wrote this note!!  So out of fear but with a need to encourage you....IT will get better in time!! At least that is what I hear!
I will just say stay close to your DR.....Make them work with you on this...give you advice...answers....lectures...what ever it takes to make you feel better about this....YOU WILL NEVER REGRET IT!! You wont....I'm sure your mom told you that when you were being born she felt like changing her mind about all of it.....I know I told my daughters that!  Why because parts of child birth are very very hard.....you hurt so much or were so afraid....soon it all went away and saw the beauty of that little one.......You are in this.....You are having labor pains birthing this new person you will become....No one said it will be easy....but oh it will be so worth it! Hang in there....breath deep.....You will never remember how hard it was later....only the beauty of what you become will be remembered....Hugs....
Sherry

Life is good.  Stress not...  for i am the most non-compliant patient ever.  pleas check with Rita, and Ruth, they will tell you that I never follow the rules...

So to let you know...  I have no idea the amount of liquids I take in per day....

I drink and eat at the same time.

I feel great and hit my 100 pound mark in two months.

I still help the construction team pour concrete on my villas.

I stopped working out to stop losing weight.

BUT, I have a few things working in my favor.....

I eat LOW carb, and love it.
I haven't had a soda since the night before my surgery.
I always take my Calcium Citrate
I always take a ration of vitamins
I always get up in the morning and thank God
I'm always thankful that i don't deal with crazy women
And I never drink alcohol or sugar based drinks
I beat food lust and mind hunger in the first two weeks.

I did all of it my way because I knew this was one of those decisions that I had to learn about from my support network before I had the surgery.  I was a pain in the rear to Rita, Kim, Lynnette, and Ruth....  i asked a million questions and I was always out for the answer even if I didn't want to hear about it.  I knew that once I left the hospital, I would never again drink chicken or beef broth.

If you still feel good after not drinking some certain amount, maybe it's fine, maybe it's not, it's one of those things that could end up in the hospital, and after hearing how badly things have turned out for your mom, I'd be certain that you don't have the same issues that she might have.

I'm not gonna say you're gonna be just fine, but the decision is really yours on how you accept the directions that you've been given....for me, maybe I'm just lucky....maybe i'm barely hanging in there, but I know if I end up in the local hospital, it would be my fault...all my fault...  i'd have noone to blame but me, becasue of those terrific women who helped me get through my questions, and my weird non-prescribed methods of Thomas post WLS.  All of them told me that I'd be fine.....  they were right.....  I never trusted my own family ith the knowledge I was going in for surgery, because they would never understand it...so i trusted 4 ladies who were there for me when I needed them....and one of them who would scream at me when I needed to listen to her warnings... (Rita....)....  it's lik getting a spanking when you were small...  you hated to get them and didn't like them, but after the events are over, you know you deserve a little bit of spanking and in fact, you appreciate those who simply want you to be the best that you're capable of....

I don't know you personally, but I love you simply because you're in the struggle with the rest of the "little bellied army"...  no judging here....just a needless opinion..from a guy who does it his way....

T.

Melissa~

I had more than a fair share of complications and admit that I had a hard time right out the gate when I first had my WLS 4+ years ago.  It took a while to get to where I like water as much as I do now.  It was definitely not an overnight thing for me.  I couldn't do coffee or tea at first, stomach upset like crazy... omg.  There were so many days I wondered how I didn't end up in the hospital, hooked up to an IV because of my fluid intake.  I'm not about to sit here and just tell you it will all be peachy keen and ok, you'll be fine... I know you want to scream and throw things right now and hearing that only makes it worse.  I don't feel like you made a mistake having the WLS, but I will tell you from my own personal experience, the first few months of adjustment (first 5 mos, in my case) were the hardest for me.  I know the stress of your mom being sick from her own WLS can't be helping anything either.  Just know that you aren't alone in your struggles and there are others who have been there before you as well.  I was in and out of the hospital in my first 5 mos out of surgery on several occasions before I got it right.  I am still, by no means, the perfect patient, but I feel a lot better about things these days.  I am here for you, day or night.  Take care!  *hugs*

Lissa, If you haven't allready you probably should call Weight Wise. Dr Broussard is out til Monday but Dr. Walton will speak with you. I know that it is extremly difficult for you right now. That being said, you have to get your 64 ozs of fluids a day. This is not an option. You must sip sip sip all day long. Are you able to keep fluids and food down? If not you could possibly have a stricture. If that is the case then you need to have a EGD to fix that. Once that is dilated and fixed things get easier.

I also would encourage you to speak with Dr. Keller. He can probably help you a great deal with handling the feelings that you are having right now. The main thing is to stay focused and keep a positive attitude. This plays such a big part in your recovery and success.

I keep this sign over my Mom's bed. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". I know that when I have difficult times I repeat this scripture and it always helps. Best of luck to you and don't let this go without getting it checked out. Hugs, Rita

Call Dr. Keller- TODAY!!!  You need a tune-up!  You certainly have had your share of stress to deal with.  You almost certainly need someone to talk to about what is going on in your life.

You MUST drink even if you don't like it.  Your body must have liquid to function.  It is not an optional activity.