(spiritual) Devotion #3

Hi, Everyone.
Again, thank you for your kind comments after yesterday's devotional. Each one encouraged me and fed me.
Today's devotional is from my journal dated April 11, 2007.

     Today the Lord led me to Micah 6:14, "You will eat, but you will not be satisfied." That's been the story of my life! I eat and eat, but I'm never satisfied.
     I realize that my heart has craved fullness and satisfaction, and I have tried to find it in food. There was an emptiness in me that I tried to fill with food. Even when I was delivered from fear and anxiety, there was still quite a bit of emptiness. Even when all the memories returned (from my past abuses) and I began to deal with them, with Dean's (my counselor's) help, one at a time, and some of the emptiness was replaced by God's love, there was still too much emptiness. I continued to try to fill it with food, even though I didn't realize it.
     I asked the Lord to help me know how to find that true heart-satisfaction, and He led me to John 6:53-58, "Jesus said to them, Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink His blood, you have no life in yourselves. He who eats My flesh and drinks My blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day. For My flesh is true food, and My blood is true drink. He who eats My flesh and drinks My blood abides in Me, and I in him. As the living Father hath sent Me, and I live because of the Father, so he who eats Me, he also will live because of Me. This is the bread which came down out of heaven; not as the fathers ate and died; he who eats this bread will live forever."
     I now know that while I had been having a daily quiet time and studying God's Word, I hadn't really been feasting on Jesus. If I can do that, I will be full and satisfied.
     I asked for the Lord to give me a daily, weekly plan that I can use and be successful, that will help me focus less on food and more on Him. This is what He gave me.
Monday: I will eat 1/2 of what I normally eat, eating when I'm truly hungry.
Tuesday: Two meals will be meal-replacement drinks and one meal will be "normal."
Wednesday: This will be my day to fast and pray.
Thursday: I will eat 3 normal meals, without overeating.
Friday: This is a 1/2 day (like Monday).
Saturday: This is the 2 meal-replacement and 1 regular meal day (like Tuesday).
Sunday: This is the 3 normal meals day (like Thursday).
     I am free to change the order, as long as I do not have two of the same meal plan days back to back. I think that perhaps this is to help my metabolism. I will put this plan in place today. This is my monthly fast day, which I signed up for at church, so it's a perfect day to begin.
     The Lord also encouraged me to take Communion daily, as a reminder of His sacrifice that paid for ALL my sins, even the sin of overeating.

Blessings,
Mary

Awesome Mary!!!  Thanks for sharing.  I guess I missed yesterdays so I will go back and find it.  Part of my reason for doing this WLS was because I was sick of "serving two masters".  I really felt my addition to food was getting in the way of the Lord wanted me to be.  -amy

Hi, Amy.
I may have missed posting Devotion #2 yesterday. If that's so, I know I posted on the Main and Christianity forums--perhaps Kansas, too. If you can't find it, let me know, and I can copy and paste one into a personal message to you.
Blessings,
Mary

I didn't even know there was a Christian forum!!!!  Wow!!  I will have to check it out.

I wouldn't have been able to find the Christianity forum, except that a kind soul posted the link (on the Main forum, I think). Hey, that rhymes! :)
Here it is: http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/christianity/posts.html
I enjoy it. It's a good place to post prayer requests. It's not as busy as the other forums, for sure, but sometimes that's a good thing. It's hard for me to keep up with the Main and VSG forums. The positive side is that those busy forums give me lots of posts to read, instead of eating. :)
Blessings,
Mary