I QUIT! I'M DONE!! I AM GIVING UP!!!

PAMMIE754
on 7/16/08 5:30 am - GRAND RAPIDS, MI
OK - I HAVE HAD IT!

FOR OVER TWO MONTHS OR SO I HAVE BEEN STRUGLING WITH THE SAME 10 LBS.  ALL I WANT IS TO GET TO ONEDERLAND BUT IT LOOKS LIKE IT AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN FOR THIS GIRL.

WITH ONE EXCEPTION, OVER THE LAST 60+ DAYS I HAVE BEEN SOOOO CAREFUL ABOUT EATING PROPERLY, EXCERSING, GETTING IN ENOUGH WATER, PROTEIN, ETC. ETC. ETC. AND THAT DAMN SCALE HAS JUST BEEN GOING UP AND DOWN AND THEN BACK UP AGAIN.

I WEIGH THE SAME TIME IN THE SAME CLOTHS (NOTHING) EACH TIME I CHECK MY WEIGHT.  YESTERDAY I WAS AT 204.5.  TODAY I WEIGHED IN AT 207.  HOW IN THE HECK CAN A PERSON GAIN OVER 2LBS. OVER NIGHT???  I HAVE DONE EVERYTHING I KNOW TO BREAK THIS "STALL" FROM ADJUSTING CALORIES UP OR DOWN IN MODERATION TO INCREASING MY EXCERCISE TO DRINKING MORE WATER AND THE SAME OLD TENLBS. JUST KEEPS RECYCLING ITSELF THRU MY BODY. 

I'M DONE - I BELIEVE I AM DESTINED TO NEVER WEIGH LESS THAN 200LBS. AND I AM ONLY 5'6" TALL!!!   IT LOOKS LIKE THIS IS THE END OF ROAD FOR ME.  I'M FINISHED.

YES - I HAVE BEEN UNDER A LOT OF STRESS.  LETS SEE NOW - HUSBAND IS DYING FROM LIVER FAILURE, CLOSE FRIEND IS DYING FROM BRAIN CANCER AND IS GETTING WORSE BY THE DAY, WE ARE EXPERIENCING SEVERE FINANCIAL DIFFICULTIES, AND THE SON OF A GIRLFRIEND OF MINE WAS KILLED A LITTLE OVER A YEAR AGO.  HE WAS A POLICE OFFICER AND WAS AMBUSED ON THE JOB, SHOT IN THE FACE, AND KILLED INSTANTLY.  HE WAS ONLY 29 YRS. OLD AND HAS A 3 YR. OLD LITTLE GIRL.  HIS MOM'S LIFE IS SHATTERED AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT CAN BE DONE TO HELP HER.

BUT - ALL THAT BEING SAID = LOTS OF OTHER PEOPLE ARE UNDER STRESS AND HAVE EXPERIENCED TRAGEDY TOO AND THEY CONTINUE TO DO WELL.  IT JUST ISN'T GOING TO HAPPEN FOR ME.

SO WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?????

THATS ENOUGH.  I'M DONE.  THANKS FOR READING THIS.

HUGGS AND THE BEST OF EVERYTHING TO EACH OF YOU!

LOVE,
PAM
sherrie T.
on 7/16/08 5:40 am - CLAREMORE, OK
Oh sweetie dont give up. It will happen for you in time. You have been and going through so much, I pray for you and your loved ones everyday and your in my thoughts too. its time to step back and give your problems to the lord and let him handle them for you! I know its hard to do but please try. your stress is keeping your body from doing what needs to be done.
Awhile back I was rashes all over my body and had miagrains plus so many other problems and I was speaking with my pastor and he told me that i had to give my problems over to the lord. it took me along time to let go but when I finally did the rashes started clearing up the miagrains became fewer and my other problems started clearing up. Yes I have times of weakness when I want to wallow in my bad times but then I have to pick myself back up and dust of my bottom and pray pray pray. it helps to talk to someone too.. if you need an ear I am good at listening. PM me and i will give you my phone number
Lyntoral
on 7/16/08 6:15 am - Norman, OK
Breathe !!!!!!!!!   Stay off the scale for a while.  Just do what you know is right and take the stress off your mind.  Stalls are the pitts !!!   Try to find something mindless to do that will give you a break from the constant stress.  My aunt and my mother both lived with me last year as they were dying -- HOSPICE WAS A GODSEND !!!!!  I hope you have help.  They will send someone to stay with your husband so you can just get out for a while.  A cup of decaf at Barnes and Noble or just at IHOP became my refuge !!  Take care and I'm praying for you.  Lynette

CarebearOK
on 7/16/08 7:29 am - Broken Arrow, OK

I hear ya...  I have also been stuck at 207 for 2 months now.  I JUST want to see ONEderland.  It's only 7 pounds so why won't it come off!  I have been going to the gym and doing things right but nothing.  I have slacked on my protein drinks which could be a problem.  After the Tulsa dinner I'm off to the gym to work out.  It's SO frustrating to hit a long stall.

You can PM me and we can have a pitty party together

I will hang in there if you will.

                                      

debtfree
on 7/16/08 11:23 am - OK
Pam don't give up.  You are going through more in your life right now then anyone I know.  So yes we all have stress...but not like you!!!  You are really going through some serious trauma right now and you need to give yourself a break.  Don't give up but do take some pressure off yourself.  Don't put unrealistic goals on yourself right now with everything you have going on.  You know, one reason this upsets you so bad is because it is the one thing in your life right now that you can (somewhat) control.  You are angry about some other things but it is coming out on this weight loss issue, thats my guess anyway.  Hang in there.  -amy

190 lbs lost
VSG 07/2008
lower body lift 10/2010
upper body lift 11/2011

(deactivated member)
on 7/16/08 11:44 am

Pam, today or even tomorrow isn't the end.  I can see where it would be very frustrating for all these things to be out of control, and then to have your own body move on it's own schedule-can't a girl catch a break?  It is so strange to have those we love move closer to death-and it's pretty easy to start feeling unworthy to live, or angry at yourself for wanting to catch a break.

What is wrong with you is you are tired, and scared and have every right to be.  My saying it will be OK won't make it any better, but know I am sending special prayers up for you tonight, just for you, to get a little peace and respite. 

 

Shelly H.
on 7/16/08 1:52 pm - Norman, OK

Pam, I'm praying for you every day and I'm sorry so much is happening. I think the weight being stalled is the straw that is breaking the camel's back for you. It's normal and good to vent and be angry. You can let all the anger out and it will do your mental and physical health a world of good.

When you aren't so stressed and have a bit of extra energy to focus on your health, maybe try the 5 day pouch test or go back to liquids for a few days to jump start your metabolism. Also, when the physical therapist that did my evaluation told me that I needed an hour of exercise a day to maintain weight and 90 minutes of exercise a day to lose weight, I felt like giving the sweet, young thing a knuckle sandwich. ; ) Reevaluate your exercise program, too ... when you feel up to it.

Also, don't stress about your weight now. You have too much going on . The fact that you are maintaining is a huge accomplishment! You must be doing tons of things RIGHT in order to maintain during all of this.

(((((((((Pam)))))))))) I'm praying for you and Steve, and Karen, too.  

Blessings and Best Wishes! Shelly


I'm a 52.5 yr. old female with chronic illness ... exercising and riding a bike daily! : )


ssaassypants
on 7/16/08 2:33 pm - McAlester, OK
Awwwww, dont be so hard on yourself!!!!!!!!!  Stress is a killer!  I know that you will see the 100's, just hang in there, I know easier said then done!  But you are so right you have ALOT going on right now. I will be prayin for ya!  hugs
cat59
on 7/17/08 12:30 am - Reydon, OK
Don't give up! You're a fighter or you wouldn't have made it this far. I'm so sorry for all the stress in your life, but you will see that scale move. I stalled for 2-3 months at 200-207 before I finally broke through. It will happen.

Special prayers for you. ((Hugs))

GlitterGal
on 7/20/08 5:57 am - Edmond, OK
Maybe you need to have a few higher calories days to shake up your metabolism.  Maybe your body has gotten lazy or used to the number of calories you eat every day and isn't burning efficiently?

I can't even begin to understand the stress you are under with what you are going through.  I just don't understand how some people are expected to handle so much.  It does test your faith, I'm sure!

Hang in there!  Your stall will eventually break and you'll be in onederland!  Maybe some day even I might be there so you get there first and make it nice and comfy for me!

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