ugh..I said I wasn't going to freak out. I lied.

I said I wouldn't freak out.  But then I came home a little early from work, the house is quiet, I am alone with my thoughts.  HOLY COW!  What am I getting ready to do?!  What if I have complications?  What if I have nausea like a lady on the main board has had for the past month?!  What if I go bald?  What if I have to be on reflux meds that my stupid insurance won't cover?  What if I have a leak?  What if, what if, what if???  I'm scared.  What if I can't handle not eating any food for 2 weeks.  I'm sorry to freak out and my brain tells me it is normal since I saw/read all of you freak out before yours but still...!!  Am I doing the right thing?  Does the sheer fact that I ask this question mean I am not?  Arrgghhh!!  I need to turn my brain off.

Ok Amy.....You know what you are getting into....You have studied it! You know the rate of complications there at WW. You know there are nausea meds, You know there are wigs if you need one, You know. insurance has to cover meds required by a doctor...at least partially....Leaks can be fixed!  What if you just let God and the doctor worry about all those what ifs and just climb up into Jesus' lab and relax.....You are saving your life!! You have made the choice now rest in that....Now....remind me of all this when it's my turn OK??? I'll be praying for you!!  Sherry

Thank you.  I need that reminder.  I of all all people know better.  When the bomb went off at 9:02 a.m. on April 19th and I fell three floors and was buried alive for 6 1/2 hours, it was Jesus who I called on and who was with me.  If I could feel peace during that ordeal then this just be a walk in the park!  His Word tells me He will never leave me or forsake me.

Amy, sweetie, this is totally normal. I had the same feelings and had one day about a week or so before surgery where I cried at the drop of a hat.

Just pray about this and leave this in HIS hands. Unless you feel, or hear, a definite message to change your plans, then I think everything is going to be fine.

Most of us have had no nausea or vomiting. None of us are bald ... yet.... but if we do go bald, I'm sure we'll all be running down to the local wig store and hoping for a group discount ...  or getting cool ball caps. If you need reflux meds that you have to pay out of pocket for, it will balance out. I eat so few groceries now that it more than makes up for my reflux meds even if I had to pay for them out of pocket. Also, Prilosec OTC isn't that expensive. ; )

Also, we're all praying that you will not have a single complication and that you'll fly through this and have a speedy recovery. We're all pulling for you, Amy ... and praying, too!

Just one more thing... the day before and the day of my surgery I had a total peace in my heart ... you know, the one that surpasses all understanding. I'm praying for you to know clearly what you are supposed to do and have a total peace about the decision.

Thank you Shelly.  I need these reminders.  It really does help me.  I am praying for God to calm my nerves.  I also didn't think about the savings on groceries just in case I do have to pay more out of pocket for meds. 

Our monthly budget definitely had some shifting after surgery. Category spending changed but overall end results are the same. More for vitamins/supplements and less for groceries. : )

Amy, What you are experiencing is totally NORMAL!  I think most of us went thru it to one extent or the other.  Understandably you have many What ifs..... Ask yourself this ..... What if I don't have the surgery?   Remember that we are all here to support you.  My prayers are with you now and will continue for you.   Not to worry dear lady - All will be well.  Relax and be at peace. Huggs, Pam

Breathe !!!  You know in your heart and mind what you want to do.  I don't think you would have come this far just on a whim.  As far as the meds, I called my regular doctor and asked him for samples.  He gave me enough to last for the month and then said if I needed more to just let him know.  Like someone has said before, you know you're in good hands at weightwise -- they won't fail you.   The nausea -- do you really think it could be any worse than morning sickness?  You've been through that -- that, too, passed.  I don't blame you for being scared -- but think what the benefits will be if you find the courage to go through with it.   I'll do anything I can to help.  Call me if you need some reassuring words !  Lynette

You've gotten a lot of good advice, I just wanted to say that I've never seen a totally bald post-op woman :)  And if you loose more hair than you'd like you can get wigs and try on different hair styles