Is this normal???

Okay...so everyone knows my surgery is LESS than 24 hours away now. I decided last night that I would write my son a letter telling him everything his mommy loves about her precious boy "just in case." I hadn't had a moment of the "just in cases" yet, but it sucked SO bad!!! I mean, I know I'll be fine because God has placed me in the hands of my particular surgeon. But still....they hand you a list of everything that is a possibility and I was just flooded with the, "oh my gosh, what if i really don't make it!?!?!?" thoughts. PLEASE tell me I'm normal!!!! lol And PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray for me. I'm still SO excited I can't stand it...just getting really nervous now.... Love ya'll!

You are normal!!!!  I haven't had surgery yet but I just know it is normal. I'm sure those on the bench will come along in a little bit and confirm.  Just focus on that newly released study that shows 487 VSGs and NO deaths.  Remember, the morbidity rate is the same as getting gall bladder out or any other routine type surgery, just about zilch.  I know I will be the same as you and will need you to remind me when it ismy turn.  I am praying for the Lord to give you a peace and calm in the midst of this "storm".

It wouldn't be normal if you ignored all the possible dangers! You have a beautiful son that you love and he's your priority. Why wouldn't you feel this way? BUT....it will pass and you will be just fine. It went through my mind, but the good news is that the mortality rates for this surgery are wonderfully almost non existent and you are in amazing hands with Dr. B and his staff. It's all good with God my friend. God is good....all the time and all the time.....God is good. Blessings, Cindy

Well if it is not normal then I am not normal either.  I have started letters to all my family just in case.  I have 8 days left and I am feeling more nervous than ever.  Just hang in there God will be right by your side and you will do great.  Keep the faith and I will be praying for you.

You are absolutely normal.  Surgery is still surgery- no matter how much you want it.  That being said you are going to do great!  This surgery was by far one of the easiest I have ever had.  I had minimal pain that was well controlled.   The 2 weeks of liquids is pretty tough but doable.  Remember to do some protein each day.  Hunger won't feel like it has in the past.  Once I added about 45 grams of protein to my liquids I was on top of the world.  My energy was wonderful and I felt well. I found the bullets to be the way to go.  I still can't face a chocolate shake made from powder. Write you letter to your son.  Keep it for when he is a teenager and you are ready to kill him.  Then, read your letter and share it with him.  It will mean a great deal to both of you at that point. Denise

Liz, you're normal. I think we all had the realization of the risk of what we were doing before surgery. I have you in my prayers!

You are oh so normal.  In fact, you'd be a weirdo if you weren't anxious and scared.  But, trust me, all will be fine!  You are in such good and kind hands.  These dudes know what they're doing.  They will do a wonderful job on your new little banana! Just a few hours to go to remember that you are getting your life back.  Remember all of the wonderful reasons you decided to do this.  You will be great! Call me if you want to talk!  I'll see you on the Loser's Bench tomorrow, girlie! Kim

Hi Liz - yes it is absolutely normal. I wrote a letter to my daughter the day before surgery, gave it to my husband and told him to give it to her 'just in case" - I don't know how old your son is, by my daughter is 14, so she would have been old enough to read it and understand, in the event something would have happened to me. I just wanted her to know the reasons I was doing this..etc... I cried like an idiot as I was writing this letter to her, but I needed her to know what was on my mind. I think that we just can't help having these thoughts when we are facing surgery...for me this was my very first time having surgery, so I was pretty nervous about the unknown part of it, but I also had this conviction that everything would be alright and that I was in excellent hands (makes a world of difference when you trust your surgeon) - You will do great tomorrow!!  Anna

The day you become a mother, you are faced with your two biggest fears.  The first being something bad happening to your child, and the next something bad happening that would make it so you couldn't take care of your child.  It's really nice that you were able to put into words what you feel for your little boy while you're so full of nervous anxiety.  It's totally normal to feel this way.  I wrote letters and made an outline for my husband of things he should worry about with our kids at certain ages.  Just know that you will be fine, and this will give your son a healthier mom!  I'll say an extra prayer for you tonight.  Keep busy today and try to keep your mind off of things!   Diana