I'm back and it's almost surgery time!

I'm back from my weekend trip and had a great time.  But now it's back to the real world!  I must admit that I've had a couple of moments where I think "what the heck am I getting ready to do to myself"!!!???  I guess that's normal but it would be nice if my peeps here could reassure me a little bit?  I'm needy today!  LOL!

You know I had those mini meltdown moments.  It is a scary prospect to have someone remove the majority of our stomachs.  However, as we know from reading posts and talking to people that life on the "otherside" is good.  These first 2 weeks are hard.  I am not particularly enjoying the liquids today.  I even dreamed of eating last night!  I know- that makes me a sick puppy!  We will get healthy together!  I was the test fish and I lived! D

WTH with the fish comment!!! LMAO!!!!  et tu brute?????

Great!  Now I'm gonna dream about food!  Just what I needed!  LOL! All will be well!  I'm gonna be on that loser's bench before you know it.  Move over, sucker! 

Kim being scared is normal hun, we all were.  A heavenly calm came over me though the day of surgery.  I think i was the most calm of all of my family.  My dad was even nervous which is not normal for him.  My aunt Donna prayed with me about an hour before I was taken back and it really calmed my spirit and left me in God's (and Dr Gorospe's) wonderful hands.  The 14 days of liquid hell is tough but you have already proven you are a tough trooper and you will do just fine.  If you need us, and sometimes even if you DONT want us nagging you, we are here for you.  Best of luck darlin and cant wait for you to be in the bench with all of us. 

WOW you are looking good!

Thank you Sultan!  I do feel better.  I can do this!  I can do this!  Pray for some heavenly calm for me too! 

I would be most concerned if you WERE not having 2nd thoughts Kim!!  You are doing exactly what I would expect at this particular moment.  If you need me, call.  I'm here for you sista!!!!

Did someone say something about plenty of fish???? LMAO

Thanks everyone!  It's so weird.  Today I decided to do liquids a protein bars only as needed.  I'm afraid I might have gained over the weekend trip.  My DH is sitting on the love seat crunching away on MY almonds and it's hard to listen to!  But this is my choice and he shouldn't have change his behavior because I've made a decision.  The weird part is how many times I've caught myself thinking, I'll just have a little cottage cheese or I'll just have a little beef jerky.  I mean, dang, it's the principle of the thing.  I promised myself and I'm gonna do it!  But it's such a natural, unconscious act to just graze!  Wow!  Piggy-dom is gonna be hard to beat but I will do it!  This is my time!  (Queue Rocky move music here!)  LOL!