I finally need to talk about it- cross post

 I've been struggling under the burden of something for awhile...now that burden has seemingly doubled and I have to open up about it or I'll explode.
Some of you know that I have been struggling with Anemia. A month ago they added a severe vitamin D deficiency. I was informed that if we don't figure out how to get these issues under control, together, they could kill me. Scarey stuff. I am in constant pain all over my body...walking hurts, moving hurts...I just hurt no matter what. Often I come home from work and get in my bed and don't get up except if I REALLY have to pee because moving is so excruciationg.
On top of this, I've had issues with my right eye that have moved down my face and into my ear. I've been treated multiple times in multiple ways and the problem only worsens every day.
Friday, while I was having my infusion, my Dr.'s office called me on my cell and informed me that they're ordering a CT scan of my head: they're looking for a tumor.
 I'm so stricken with grief and fear. There is no comfort...just sadness at the thought of leaving my precious family.
I'm sorry this is such a downer, but thanks for letting me vent.

Oh Sweetie, I will pray for you fervently. I'm sorry that I don't know you better. Do you have any diagnosis? I am feeling that you feel  the comfort of loving arms of your family and friends and of the good Lord above. Please, if there is anything you need or anything I can do, I'd be happy to do anything at all.

Thank you very much, Shelly. I have diagnoses for the deficiency...but it's a waiting game on the other issue. Again, I appreciate your kindness.  Daph

Daph, I just saw your post.  I checked out the posts before going to bed.  My heart goes out to you.  You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry for the rough time you are going through and I hope and pray that the doctors are able to find the way to bring you back to health.   Diana

Daph I haven't met you yet in person but know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.  I hope that you can overcome this news and the docs can help you get past these problems.  You are one of our family here and would hate to have anything bad happen to ya.  I am glad that you decided to talk with us all about it and I hope our support can give you some extra strength.  HUGS

You're in my prayers, Daph. Please keep us informed on how the CT scan goes. Remember the serenity prayer: "God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we can, and wisdom to know the difference."

Daph, I don't know you, but your news struck a cord in my heart.  I'm praying that the docs come up with something very soon and that you feel the comfort and inner peace that only God can give to you.  Like okiewolf said...you're family!  (MORE HUGS)

I will be praying for you.  Just keep the faith God does wonders.

Daphie, ((((((HUGS)))))) Here's praying that God will give you peace and strength.Thanks for sharing with us. God doesn't close a door unless he leaves a window open. We are here for you anytime. I think the CT scan will come out okay. We just need to get your labs under control. Best wishes, Rita

Daphie, my prayers are with you and your family.  I am believing for a good report with your CT scan.  God is with you, and He will give you strength and comfort in this time of need.  I have not met you, but I live in Claremore and maybe we will see each other at one of the events coming up (Lilac festival) or your fishing derby.  HUGS, Dionne