Okay, I'm focusing now on reasons I WILL do this!

Excellent Amy! I know you're going to succeed! : )

One of my resolutions is to go back to Disney World and ride the 2 rides I couldn't fit on during my son's Make-A-Wish trip in 2000. One was Dudley Do-Right's Ripsaw Falls (log ride...seats too tight together) and the other one was Back to the Future where you ride in Doc's car. I could've written the same list except for the part about the kids being embarrassed to be seen in public with me. They've never been embarrassed, but my son did tell me how cool it was that he could put his arms all the way around me when he hugs me. You can do this. You deserve to do this. I too swore off panty hose for eternity. I have a multitutde of them from my mom's subscription to a pantyhose club..they fit up to 400 pounds (I think). I can bring them to the next support group if you want 'em. When I absolutely HAVE to wear pantyhose, I'm wearing thigh highs under my Dr. Rey Shapewear from Sears.

Oh I can technically wear panty hose but they are horribly uncomfortable at my size.  Not that they were wonderful before i got fat but they are way worse now.  I want to wear them and not be in pain.

I can relate. I was 354 at my highest and 333 when I started the journey. I had to lose 30 pounds for surgery, so I went in at 303. I've been there.  ((Hugs)) you can do it.