Okay, I'm focusing now on reasons I WILL do this!

·        I can’t go to Disney World, can’t walk that much or ride rides

 

·        Legs rubbing together and getting sore when walking too much

 

·        Having wide feet and not being able to buy cute shoes or heels

 

·        Not being able to buy clothes from a normal store

 

·        People assume you are stupid or lazy

 

·        Being sluggish all the time and having no energy

 

·        Can’t fit in a plane seat comfortably or without seat belt extender

 

·        Can’t fit in a car easily or without a seat belt extender

 

·        Feeling the steering wheel rub my stomach

 

·        Having to spend more money for clothes and they aren’t my style

 

·        Feeling constantly judged

 

·        Not being able to horseback ride, sail, or other fun activities

 

·        Back pain

 

·        Feeling like a failure

 

·        Seeing people I haven’t seen since I gained weight

 

·        Having to check weight restrictions

 

·        Seeing myself in pictures or videos

 

·        Not being able to wear panty hose

 

·        Can’t gracefully get up off the floor

 

·        Hurts to kneel at the altar

 

·        Worrying that I will break a chair

 

·        Rashes and sweating

 

·        Not being able to find a bra that fits right

 

·        Aching legs

 

·        Double, triple chins

 

·        Can’t wear normal length watches or bracelets

 

·        Can’t wear normal size rings

 

·        High blood pressure

 

·        Having to look at myself in the mirror when getting hair cut

 

·        Being weighed at the doctor’s office

 

·        My son will soon be embarrassed for his friends to see me

 

That's a great list and all are things I can relate to. Except the wearing panty hose one. I've sworn off panty hose for the rest of my life. lol Keep your list handy and let it "inspire" you. You're beautiful and doing this for yourself is going to feel better than anything could ever taste. Cindy

Amy  - this list is so right on!! I can relate to each and every thing you listed!!! - You can do this, you will be so happy when you can start marking these things off the list. And you will... Remember this will be so worth it - Anna

THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT GIRLFRIEND!!!! How much does THAT inspire you to WORK IT OUT?? Everything on that list is the reason you CAN do this! Post that list in your car, your mirror, on your desk, where ever you need it to remind you what you are working towards!!

Very smart to make yourself a list like that, I should have done that too.  I have been having issues the last couple of weeks asking myself why the hell did I do this.  We all go through it (from what I have been told).  I want to lose this weight, get healthier, look better, live longer....all of that.  I have dealt with issues of..... Why didnt I get VSG instead? Why hasnt it came off faster? Why did I do this since I cannot eat what I used to love anymore? Why did I do this, now I have to take 5000 pills a damned day that taste like (deleted)? etc etc. I am not backing down from my goal or backing down from using my tool I have now to the best of my ability.  But I still have days when I just want to scream.  Thats why I have you all, you ALOOW me to scream and then guide me back to the right path.

Support, Support, SUPPORT.  I don't know how anyone does this alone!  I have met people that said they don't need support group/s, but I just don't GET it!   I guess I am a list person too.  It always makes more sense to have a "road map" of sorts to get me through something difficult.  That's why I always suggest the "list" approach.  Although if you forced me to JOURNAL my food, fuggettaboutittt!!!  Ask my dietitian Chris!!!  Ain't happening!! But that is why we all keep coming here!  A sense of accountability and self worth and someone to kick us in the pants when we get off course!!! Love you guys!!!!!

Okie - get real!  What are you talking about slow???  You've lost 45 stinkin' pounds!  That's incredible!  Besides, we should all be taking vitamins for the rest of our lives anyway.  Right, Ruth????? Glitter-pain-in-the-tush-Gal

Get off me missy!!  I am TRYING to behave and take my vitamins!!  Ask Dan!!  We TALK about it all the time!!  I promise to behave and take my vitamins.  Hey BTW I actually BOUGHT and used my glucometer today!!  You should be so proud!!!  I'm a big girl now!!!  HA!  WENCH!!!   Don't forget to think about John and Michelle as they move on to the Losers Bench on 5/5!!!   Love ya!!

Dan - I know what you mean...I had one of those days yesterday (Sunday). I found those thoughts going through my mind, and thinking that I all I really just wanted to do was eat all day, just like I used to eat before surgery . I ditched my vitamins, I didn't journal - this was almost like a sense of rebellion against what I chose to do to myself. I felt really crappy by the end of the day, and actually I couldn't wait for the day to be over, because I knew I would be back on focus the next day and I am. I think these are things that we sometimes go through because of the major changes in our habits, attitudes, and because we spent years having no control on what we ate. I miss the way I used to eat sometimes, but, I would never go back to that, even if I had a choice (good thing I don't - LOL!!)

Amy - I could've written most of your list.  I truly, truly understand what you are saying.  But just like you, I know this is my time.  This is the time I'm going to make it!   This is my time.  This is my chance.  I will make it happen!!  And so will you!