Tomorrow is my day

Hi all, tomorrow is my day.  I thought I was doing really well and that I was so prepared.  Until this morning anyway, I was taking my kids to school, and I forgot to make thier lunches.  Usually they eat at school, but my son has a peanut allergy and today of all days is the day for peanut sandwitches.  I lost it, what kind of mom am I to forget the lunches.  Then as if it wasn't  bad enough already I told my son sorry I forgot, I just have so much on my mind lately.  I would run straight home and get one made and bring it back.  The he said that's alright mom now you have this on your mind too.  I am having this surgery to get healthy for me, my family and especially my kids.  I want to be there for them I want to see them grow and I want to live with them, not just sit on the sideline.  That is what was so hard today, I forgot him.   I got so wrapped up in my nerves and the surgery I forgot him.  Sorry for going on and on.  I guess I just needed to let this out for some one to hear.  I love my kids and I love my husband and I love the life we have made.  I trust my surgion he is one of the best in the country.  Please keep me in your prayers, I go to the hospital at 5:15 tomorrow morning.

Oh sweetie!  You poor thing!  I completely understand!  You are human, though.  It's good for your kids to see you as human.  You have raised a wonderful boy that he's so considerate to realize that you didn't for get HIM, but instead have so much on your mind.  Look at how he reacted as a sign of how much love you have taught him.  That is your love and forgiveness reflected in him! He didn't throw a temper tantrum and shout about how you always forget him, because you don't.  You've spent his whole life putting him first and it shows.  I think he understands. When my oldest was in public school a few years ago, I forgot his lunch no less that 3-4 times a year.  *LOL*  You know, things on my mind and exhaustion to boot.  It happens.  Just know that he appreciates that you are willing to go home and make it and bring it up to him.   Mommies are people, too! You're also probably a little more sensitive with the stress of acting like you're not worried about this surgery.  It's major surgery.  It's ok to be scared or concerned.  It doesn't mean that you doubt it's the right thing to do.  It just means you're human.  I think if there wasn't a little bit of stress in your life right now, THEN there'd be something wrong with you.

Thank you so much now you made me cry again.  I am just a ball of nerves.

Laurel, Repeat after me...All will be good, all will be good...  Prayers and MUCHO hugs coming your way for a safe surery and speedy recovery.   Happy Holidays, Michelle

I hope you have a speedy recovery. 

Omigosh-your son saw you as a human being and dispalyed empathy and understanding instead of entitlement.  Honey, you must be doing something right!

Thank you all for your encouragment.  This is my last post until after surgery.  We are leaving shortly. 

Good Luck tomorrow  All will be fine hugs sandyc

Good luck tomorrow!!!  Prayers and hugs to you!!!   Yours was only a lunch mishap.....I forgot the valentines day cards for the class.....we all do it sweetie.....take a deep breath!!! -Sandy

As others have said, your son showed compassion for you. I know that you are in the hospital now, so I'm praying for you all. I had it all together until they came and took me to surgery..the tears started. My daughter was sniffling too. It's a big emotional thing...anytime that you have surgery it's nerve wracking.