Loving the liquid diet!

The real day 7.  Some how I think I got a little off schedule or something, but I counted on the calendar today.  Today is day 7?  For some reason I thought yesterday was.  11/26 was 1, 11/27 was 2, 11/28 was 3, 11/29 was 4, 11/30 was 5, 12/1 was 6, today 12/2 is 7.   I feel MUCH better today.  DH sorta let me sleep until 10.  I say sorta because he was in and out of the room and it woke me every time, but oh well.  I got to laze in bed.  It's rare. I STILL have not cheated.  I'm getting to the point that I know I absolutely could not do longer than 10 days.  I think I think about food more now than I ever have.  I cannot keep it out of my mind, though I try.  I am not truely hungry right now though.   I've been trying to clean all day.  We just moved in this house OCT 30 so we're still trying to get settled.  There are still boxes here and there.  I feel I need to make extra effort to get through them right now for 3 reasons.  It'll be harder to do after surgery with the lifting restrictions.  I'm trying to donate a huge chunk of children's stuff we no longer need.  I need my house settled for the visitors we'll be having around the holidays. It also helps to keep me busy and away from the idea of eating. I've found that I'm definitely a stress eater.  Who'da thunk it, but money is my key trigger?!  Things are tight right now.  That's probably the story in every house.  BUT I grew up exceptionally poor.  Lots of times there wasn't anything to eat except dinner.  Most of my pre-teens-adulthood there was no breakfast or lunch for us and snack was a word not heard in our house.  So I think everytime money gets tight I have a stronger urge to eat just because I can.  Maybe to comfort myself and realise that we DO have food.   Anyhow, I finished Christmas shopping lastnight instead of taking a bubble bath.  I didn't spend much if you compare to most families with LESS children than I have, BUT the total made me ill.  Even now the urge to eat is pretty strong.  I had a brainstorm though.  I'm going to try to replace my coping mechanisim (food) with a new one...cleaning.  I've never been "suzie homemaker" in that sense, but always wished I was.  I decided I can be.  That's what I've been working on today.  If I feel a strong urge to eat, I'll clean something instead. This day will also pass and I'll be just fine.  Thanks for listening everyone! 

If you run out of things to clean, you're welcome to come to my house! To me, during my 10 day pre-op diet, it seemed there were more food commercials on the tv than ever.  It just about drove me nuts. For me, instead of eating, I got a job at our church and started reading more.  You are a true inspiration.  Do you know how many people do the 10 day diet and actually do cheat?  Just know that I am so proud of you! Tonja

Thanks!  That means a lot.  It's going to mean a lot when I get through this and can know in myself that I didn't cheat.  Even my son (the almost 13 yr old) came to me today and told me there's no way he could do what I'm doing.  My husband has said it as well.  Everyone is being so supportive.  It really helps me get through this. Tomorrow is my last day with the control bars.  I only bought exactly how many I was allowed to have to keep me from messing up there.  Then Tuesday is laxative day.  Wednesday I'll be in WF all day first for NUT class, then hospital registration, then to see my surgeon.  I'll spend the night there and have my surgery Thursday morning.  So I won't be posting after Tuesday until I get home from the hospital and Rathburger (which I just found out is actually called Rathgerber *LOL*).  

Day 8.  I drank my magnesium citrate.  UGH!  I wasn't sure I'd be able to keep it down!  It was like drinking pure lemon juice with some carbonation added to it.  My stomach is SOOOO unhappy with me.  I'm just drinking tons of water in the hopes it'll go away.  I don't know if it's kicked in yet because I've had diarrhea for about 36 hours already.  I could very easily throw up right now.  I just feel YUCKY! Anyhow, I ended up out and about yesterday and ran out of protien shake before I ran out of errands.  I got hungry.  They were even eating at the nail salon when I got my nails done.  I was so tempted to get something to eat.  Buffalo Wild Wings is right next to the nail salon, but for the first time I noticed so is a GNC!  Thank you God!  I ran into the GNC and bought a carb free, clear, protien drink.  Isopure.  It wasn't perfect, but it really helped me resist everything else.  It comes in a realatively large bottle, too, so I had plenty to sip all while I finished my errands. Anyhow, I think the lack of eating is taking a physical toll.  I could not stay awake after 9pm lastnight.  I'm so drained.   Oh well, work to do so I'll write more later.  

You know the I didn't have to do the bowel prep with the band, but with past surgeries I've had to do them.  All I can say is...CAN'T THEY MAKE TOILET PAPER ANY BETTER THAN WHAT THEY DO? You are doing great!!!!  You are almost there.  Just relax and take care of you! Looking forward to you being on the 'other side'. Tonja