Josie !!!! How are you doingggg

I miss your smiling face on the board... How are you doing. Keep us updated... Barb

Hey Barb, I'm doing fine I think!!! I'm starting to feel much less pain, just a few spots that are numb and sore. I'm still not able to get in more than 25g of protein a day, and I kinda have to force myself to get that much in. I sure hope that I can get more protein in soon. Kinda worried about it. I'm going back to work on Wednesday, kinda being forced to do so, gotta do what you gotta do I guess. Some clients are very ungrateful. I'm not quite sure that I'm ready to return to work or not, still very weak and tired. Oh well!!! I've been walking some to try and boost my energy and mood, been kinda depressed lately. Not sure what the depression is all about, afterall I just received the greatest gift I've always wanted. I do suffer from severe depression though. Just gotta get through it. talk to ya later Barb Josie

Josie, I too had a severe bought of depression post op and was borderline suicidal. No one had told me that I would go through that, and it hit me quite unexpectedly. I too felt like such a loser because I had just gotten exactly what I prayed and hoped for for many years. God had answered my prayers and I was feeliing so hopeless and like a failure. I was losing my mind and up all night researching how to get the surgery reversed. Josie, I am begging you to get in touch with your Dr. Dr Mikami's office phoned in a low dose antianxiety medication and it made all the difference in the world. It helped to quiet all those troublesome thoughts and self doubts that were swimming through my head. It allowed me to concentrate on all the positive things that were going on in my life and not concentrate on the little negatives that seemed so big. Pray like crazy and get some help. There is not one bit of shame in asking for an antidepressant. I am on effexor and the antianxiety medication. I am feeling like myself again only better. Never feel embarrassed to admit that things are rough in your life right now. Many of us have been where you are and we are here to share our experiences with you. I found that walking or doing some sort of cardio at least 20 mins a day releases those happy Endorphins through your body and helps a lot to keep that depression and anxiety at bay. The best of luck to you Miss Josie. I am still betting on you being a Big Loser and a great success in this journey. Love ya Honey Pie. Nighty Night Laura

Laura, If you don't mind my asking, how long did it take for the suicidal and depression bout to go away? I am already deeply depressed and I worry that after surgery, it will only become worse.

Hi Bobbie, I am butting in because I have the same problem. I am still on medication and I probably always will be. I really thought after the surgery I wouldn't need it anymore. WRONG. I still do. Dont worry about it though,you will be fine. We will get you through the hard part and keep open with us, we all have been there. Some peoples depression goes away after surgery. We will help you, we are all great theripists. Love,Cindy

I think recovering from any surgery you can be really depressed. Are you on something for the depression? IIts a hard time after the surgery but you will be normal again. At 15 months out I am so used to the eating now. I eat what I want when I want. The amount still is a very little bit but I get everything I need. At this point dont worry so much about how much you get in,that comes a littl later. None of us could get in everything we needed the first month. Relax,take one day at a time and I promise, it all kicks in . I drank and ate what I could the first few weeks but believe me, it was not at all close to what I was supposed to. You are doing great,love Cindy

Thanks everyone for your advice. I don't mean to come on here and sound ungrateful, I'm very grateful for all that I have received including the support from all of you! I love being able to get instant advice from people have grown close to. You all are so wonderful and uplifting. I will call Dr. to ask his advice about being a little down. Love ya'll Josie

Hi Cindy, Thanks for the info. I currently take 300 mg. of zoloft and 3 mg. of ativan. I'm hoping to not need these after surgery, but I'm not gonna get my hopes up. I've been depressed for a long time, I don't expect it to just up and leave. Would be nice though, huh? Right now I am on my 3 month diet. I'm going to have surgery at OSU. I will keep you posted on my progress. Have a nice day!