Thanking all my angels

As you know Sunday was a really really really bad day for me. I was feeling very depressed and ready to throw in the towel and crawl into bed. But thanks to some wonderful supportive loving Angels I am pulling myself together again. I was having stres**** me from every angle and it took its toll. I have to go with this surgery now. My approval may never come again and I will die a government statistic on the risks of morbid obesity. So the show is on the road for May 6th 12 high noon.. Its Dr Mikami's showdown at the no more okay fat coral ... LOL Thank you for all the wonderful supportive letters that you have sent me, please keep them coming to remind me I am doing the right thing for myself and my family. And someday my mom, sisters, brothers aunts and uncles will see that I am not taking the easy way out. That this surgery is just a tool that God is giving me to regain control over my life . It is up to me to do the rest. ANd with Gods help and the support of this incredible group of people I can do it. We all can do it. Thank you so much Laura

Hi laura, No this is not a way out. Its damn hard. I told my DH that it really takes 6 months of learning. You have no choice but to change. Thats what the stoma does,doesnt give us the choice of eating or not. I would do it tomorrow rather then being on 2 shots a day for diabetes. I love waking up and knowing I have 23 lbs to lose to get to goal. It was always 125 lbs and thats so overwhelming/ I really feel like a normal person for the first time in 35 years. I am glad you made your decision.you wont regret it but it has to be your choice and noone elses. Yesterday I played ring-around-the-rosie with my 22 month old granddaughter and guess what............I fell down, all the way down, and got up without crawling to a chair and holding on. I got up right in the middle of the floor. She will never know me as fat and I am so happy for that. I can go to ANY restaurant and never check the size of the booth again. fun fun fun So you make up whats the most important for you and your family and good luck with your decision. Love,Cindy 98lbs

You are so welcome Laura. We all have to stick together. This site is blessed with many people that become our second family. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. You are doing the right thing. If you are like me you have always put everyone first. That is why you have to do this for yourself. Everyone else will see your progress and be happy that you followed through with your wishes. Best Wishes and Good Luck! I won't be that far behind you. Hugs, Julie

Laura, You are making a wonderful choice to help yourself so you can be there for the kids. Good luck and put it in God's hands. He won't fail you, He loves you toooooooo much. Luann

THAT'S what I want to hear!!! I was glad to hear how positive your voice sounded last night and I am so glad to see this post! "okay fat corral"...HAR!!! Since you don't have to officially check in until 11:00...you could come up and see me before your surgery!!! Then I'll wobble over to your room when you come back from recovery. I'll try not to make you jealous with my broth and runny jello!!! i wonder if we COULD arrange to be in the same room? Does any one out there know if Laura and I could request the same hospital room? Liz Hillsboro

I have not been online much but wanted to send you some hugs. I'm happy you decided not to throw in the towel! Denise

Loraine I am so sorry that your family is not supportive. I know that is very very important. I expected opposition from my mother but it was quite the reverse. Dont throw in that towel...your worth so much more. Hold that surgery date and dont let go.