4 days before surgery and I have a few questions...

1. Did anyone go through a period of great fear? I am at the point where I have actually wondered if I am doing the right thing. I do not want to die. I know I am slowly killing myself as it is now but my heart is breaking when I think of taking my kids to the sitter on Thursday night. Will it be the last time they see their Mommy? Is this wrong? 2. Is it possible to get an Angel at this late a date? I would really like to have one.

I think it is perfectly normal to go through all the "what if's" before surgery! I worked with open heart surgery patients for many years. A long time ago the patients came in the day before surgery. I always worried the most about the patients that said they weren't worried about coming through surgery. I figured they were crazy or lying. How can anyone not worry about surviving surgery? It's fear of the unknown. I've been a nurse for a lot of years, and I had the same thoughts as I was going to the hospital, even though I knew my health was pretty good and my chances of having something go wrong were pretty minimal. Take care and we will all be thinking of you....

Missy, I can't give you too much advice because I'm in the same boat, my surgery is August 26. I did get a reply from one of our AMOS buddies, she said, "do you pray? If so don't worry, if you worry, don't pray" That made a lot of sense to me. My problem is that I'm doing both and now afraid that they might cancel each other out!!!! hehehe Seriously, I do have faith in God and that's the best stress reliever. I'll keep you in my prayers if you keep me in yours! Best of luck to you. Gail

Missy- I will be your angel, honey! Email me your ph# & the ph# to the hospital. I am pre-op but belong to a wonderful support group (www.butterflylosers.org) here in Cincinnati and have met SO MANY wonderful people who are post-op. They took the big step of changing their future and all of them say it was the best thing they ever did for themselves and their family! I have four boys, and I am not afraid of leaving them on the operating table, but am afraid of what will happen if I don't have surgery. You are not alone through this. I am here to help you!