Hey, I'm in the Century Club! (so why do I feel so bad?)

My body finally gave up those last 2.5 pounds, and as of yesterday, I joined the Century Club. ONE HUNDRED POUNDS gone (FOREVER) from my highest weight! I thought I would be jumping up and down when that happened. Yes, I was happy, especially since my not-quite-6-months-out checkup with my surgeon is this Thursday, and I know she will be SO excited, but... For some reason, the fact that I an just now (5.5 months out) down to a weight that's close to what many people had as their highest weight or surgery weight... well, I guess the reality of where I started -- of how HUGE I left myself get (even though much of my weight gain was trauma-related) -- is weighing on me (no pun intended). I'm trying to let it go, because I recognize that such self-reproach is not useful or healthy, but it's hard. Knowing that the "big" losses of the first 2 or 3 months are behind me, and that I am likely facing having to lose the other 90 pounds 1.5 to 2 pounds per week (and realizing how LONG that is going to take) is... well... depressing as $%#@. I don't know why I'm having such a hard time shaking this.  (Counselor, heal thyself...)   Anyone else experienced this? Lora

Lora,  WAY TO GO GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It sounds like the hormones are kicking in again. Remember when you lose a lot of fat your hormones kinda get out of whack also. ALL THIS IS NORMAL.  You still should lose 'big' for the first year to 18 months.  Keep up the GREAT work and you will get to your goal.

Robin

Hi Lora! I am recently back to the forum and so happy to be here.  I know what you are feeling.  With 200lbs gone I am at the weight that many people begin their journey.  Often in the waiting room at my surgeons office people have asked me when my surgery date is.  Them asking doesn't really bother me but rather the fact that my losing has slowed right where they are beginning.  I want to lose another 50 and just don't see it happening.  I think many of our feelings come on because from the beginning we always had some "thing" to look forward to, a seminar, choosing a surgeon, the surgery, and then losing, a new thin life, walking again (he he)...  So when the losing slows what do we live for lol?  That is the way it seems.  And, my surgery was 9/2/04 so I am way past the days of losing large numbers quickly.  Anyway... I have invested so much of my life into this that I have felt like I had to create a new image for myself like the celebrities do (Madonna came to mind).  My weight loss story has been my life for several years now and is old news to my friends and family.  I find myself wondering what I am all about now.  Now I look forward to family time.  I guess it is getting back to the basics.  I want to live a somewhat normal life minus 200 lbs and all that came with it.  It is all new ground for me.  So, you're not alone with these feelings.  Personally I believe it touches all of us at some time. Congratulations on your progress and I wish you much peace of mind with your journey.  Thanks for the post it has been helpful to me. PJ