Not going any further with surgery

Hello , To all who have wrote me and gave me support, It is after great soul searching that I have chosen to not contiune my journey with this surgery. I do have some Issues to address and I have done alot of soul searching the past week, and I do not feel that I am 100% ready to make this kind of change, My Hubby and I have talked and of course he as always stands behind my decesions. I will not say I will never get this done, But at this point in my life I am just not 100% sure this is what I want at this moment in my life.I feel that this is a life changing event and those that are not 100% sure of it need to re-evaluate the decesion as I have. I feel like I need to try again on my own before taking this kind of step. So I plan on contuining my diet counseling for a few more weeks, I have learned alot and for me I think I really need to try and lose on my own before commiting to this kind of change. I want to thank everyone who has wrote me and lent me their support. I do not look at this as a failure on my part, I am looking at this as I need to know in my heart of hearts that I have done all I can do on my own first. I have lost in the past 50lbs and did so with exercise and better food choices, I feel that If I had kept on that road I would of done even more, but got "tired" and just quit. I need to know that I have really done all that I can on my own before doing this surgery, For me I need to make another effort on my own first. I can always have it done later if I choose. I have great Ins thats does pay for it, so that was not an issue. I just do not feel that I can commit 100% of my self to this at this time. I am thankful I do have such a loving hubby and family that stands behind me either way I feel blessed in that area. I wish all who are going through this journey the very best, but as for me the journey with the surgery is at an end for right now. I feel that in order to contiune I must feel in my heart of hearts 100% sure that this is what I want to do and I can not in all honesty say that right now. So I think I need to re-elvaluate my life first then move on with whatever descesion I choose to make. I plan on still visiting this site and following friends on here and their progress . I wish everyone a very Happy New Year!

Happy New Year Jan!!! You shouldn;t feel like you have to explain. You do what's best for you!! and you'll always be a part of our family here. We supposrt you - always!! Sharyn

Jan- It is wonderful that you realize that you just aren't prepared to have this surgery at this point. Wouldn't it be awful if you realized that after the fact? Please don't stop trying to quit smoking. It will make such a difference in your life! Do it for those beautiful granddaughters of yours! It may be easier for you now that you won't feel that you "have" to quit, but that you are choosing to quit. Best wishes to you on your journey and may God richly bless you and your beautiful family. -Karen

Thnak you Karen for your words, I will keep on trying to quit and I hope to be better at it since I won't feel "pressured " in having to do so. Yes I belive for me that I am making the right decesion at this point in my life. I actually feel some "relief" mentally, I plan on re-eniforcing the things I have already learned to my daily life. I have learned so much from my diet counseling sessions and I hope to finish them ( 4 wks left), I am sure that my counseler would agree, I go to see her on Tues. I was avg a pound a week in weight loss so hey if I can contiune that well thats 52 pds in a yr not to bad I think. Anyway thansk again for all your kindness and I wish you and your family a very Happy New Year!!

Jan, I think everyone on this board can relate to what you are saying. I totally went through the same emotions that you speak of. I had to give it one last effort to do it on my own too. It is a HUGE decision and you have to be 100% ready. And ONLY YOU can make that decision. Best of luck to you. I wish for you a healthy and happy new year!!! Keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. Julie

Miss Jan, I am proud of you and proud to be your friend!!! It takes great courage to admit your heart is not exactly where it needs to be to make this work for you. When it is right it will all CLICK for you.. You will have no doubts and you will just know its time. You are doing the right thing for you and each day a piece of the puzzle will fall into place for you.. You are so blessed to have such a loving husband who is so supportive of you. You are a smart, strong, beautiful lady and will arrive at your goal in your time and Gods time. God might be telling you its just not the appropriate time for this to fall into place now. But dont you dare vanish from this group. We care about you and want to know how you are doing. I am continuing to send positive t houghts your way and lots of prayers as well. My offer of a little pep talk over coffee still stands. I never pass up a chance to have a good cup of coffee and have good conversation Keep in touch. Love and hugs Laura

Jan; Good luck with your plans. Please remember that I will keep you and your family in my prayers. May 2007 be a "thinner" year for you. Also, keep up the good work with quitting smoking. I will miss seeing you at our Support Group. Annetta

JAN, I respect your decision not to go ahead with the surgery right now. Maybe when things settle down you will be able to concentrate on stopping the smoking and change your mind about the surgery. I'm already getting cold feet and have decided to pursue the Lap Band surgery, instead of RNY. Right now I'm at 217 and can't see myself losing 100 lbs. I'd look like death warmed over at 117. I haven't weighed that since college. Whatever you do decide I do hope you don't leave OH. Obesity Help is a support group no matter which route you go and you still have friends here and we are all here to support you in your decisions and whatever may be bothering you. Take care Jan. God speed. Hugs, Peggy P.S. I wrote this once before but my electricity went out. I thought it went through.

Yes I am going to hold out for the lapband, That actually was my 1st choice anyway, but then itwas my ins that said that they dont do that kind yet, some say it is because of all the fill adjustments, But I know they will eventally add it in and then I will go for it. I like that you lose weight at a slower pace with the band, I think it gives that person more time to exerise and tone up since it comes off slower. I like that there are less complcations with the lapband and if needed to it can be removed. I know my ins will come onboard sooner or later with it and when they do I will get it, I just don't feel in my heart of hearts that this one (RYN) is the one for me, I think I was just willing to settle for that because that was the one that they would pay for right now, but I am not will to take thoses risks at this time, so I will wait till the Ins co comes around to the Lapband. But please stay in touch with me, I want to know how everone get along ok. Take Care good luck and keep in touch I will too Hugs Jan

Good luck to you Jan! WLS should always be considered a "last resort". Hopefully, your newfound determination will lead the way for you the old fashioned way. If it doesn't don't beat yourself up over it. You gave it a try.